let's just stop me from having emotions anymore because everything is not good and i really don't like how fUCKING incompetent i am -- like why do stella and cici have to be so goddamn cute and rELATED like it would be great if they just didn't know each other at all because then everything would be a lot more simple like i could just go and make an attempt and the other wouldn't know about it but since they're related i would never be able to just go to the other one if things didn't work ou...