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Permaculture is a set of design principles centered around whole systems thinking simulating or directly utilizing the patterns and resilient features observed in natural ecosystems. It uses these principles in a growing number of fields from regenerative agriculture, rewilding, community, and organizational design and development.

With its system of applied education, research and citizen-led design permaculture has grown a popular web of global networks and developed into a global social movement



I was just remembering how I can’t enjoy things as much as I used to in my teens. Experiences that used to give me a rush, like listening to music or watching movies, getting lost in a book, or even orgasms, feel unremarkable to me now. I can hardly think of anything that could make me feel excited these days. Not a concert, not learning, not food, not hanging out with a close friend.

I decided to search the Internet to see if there’s anything credible out there that describes my experience, and I found this:


“Anhedonia is a diverse array of deficits in hedonic function, including reduced motivation or ability to experience pleasure.

While earlier definitions of anhedonia emphasized the inability to experience pleasure, anhedonia is used by researchers to refer to reduced motivation, reduced anticipatory pleasure (wanting), reduced consummatory pleasure (liking), and deficits in reinforcement learning.

In the DSM-V, anhedonia is a component of depressive disorders, substance related disorders, psychotic disorders, and personality disorders, where it is defined by either a reduced ability to experience pleasure, or a diminished interest in engaging in pleasurable activities.”

Though I’m wary of self-diagnosis, this is kind of a spot on description of what I've been feeling for at least 2 years.

I’m ambivalent about whether I have some form of depression, but I undeniably experience some of the symptoms.

PostScript: even on acid, I feel nothing (but sadness)

Post-PostScript: I did feel quite a bit and changed my outlook on life.

The challenges facing our world today are more complex and species-threatening than ever before in human history. The global threat of climate change and the social impacts of digitalisation and globalisation are currently far more complex than our collective capacity to comprehend. In order for us to move forward, our thinking about global problems has to evolve to match their complexity.

Our world is socially constructed in more ways than we habitually tend to think. Human beings are dependent on and connected to the natural world, but when it comes to human society we are the creators. This means that we have more power than we realise to change it.


The madness of thought

Nothing exposes the fragility of your thoughts like trying to write them down.

You try to make thoughts stick in your head long enough for you to type them on the page, but your mind helplessly moves on. It has no choice.

Writing to yourself initially feels absurd:

"Who am I talking to?"
"What is the point of writing down what's already in my head?"

It doesn't make sense to be author and audience at the same time. And yet, this is what is happening in our minds 24/7. We are constantly, intently listening to our internal monologue, as if someone is talking to us.

Excerpts from 'The Age of Surveillance Capitalism'

Sur-veil-lance Cap-i-tal-ism, n.

  1. A new economic order that claims human experience as free raw material for hidden commercial practices of extraction, prediction, and sales;

  2. A parasitic economic logic in which the production of goods and services is subordinated to a new global architecture of behavioral modification;

  3. A rogue mutation of capitalism marked by concentrations of wealth, knowledge, and power unprecedented in human history;

  4. The foundational framework of a surveillance economy;

  5. As significant a threat to human nature in the twenty-first century as industrial capitalism was to the natural world in the nineteenth and twentieth;

  6. The origin of a new instrumentarian power that asserts dominance over society and presents startling challenges to market democracy;

  7. A movement that aims to impose a new collective order based on total certainty;

  8. An expropriation of critical human rights that is best understood as a coup from above: an overthrow of the people’s sovereignty.

Surveillance capitalism runs contrary to the early digital dream, consigning the independence of cyberspace to ancient history. Instead, it strips away the illusion that the networked form has some kind of indigenous moral content, that being “connected” is somehow intrinsically pro-social, innately inclusive, or naturally tending toward the democratization of knowledge.

Just as industrial capitalism was driven to the continuous intensification of the means of production, so surveillance capitalists and their market players are now locked into the continuous intensification of the means of behavioral modification and the gathering might of instrumentarian power.

At its core, surveillance capitalism is parasitic and self-referential. It revives Karl Marx’s old image of capitalism as a vampire that feeds on labor, but with an unexpected turn. Instead of labor, surveillance capitalism feeds on every aspect of every human’s experience.