so today the cleaner is coming again >:(
i fucking hate that and it only happens every other week but i hate it so much i'm glad she made it not every week
anyway this means i'll have to go downstairs for most of the day (10/11-15/16), though hopefully that time is spent in the playroom where i can be alone. tho there isnt a food source in there, but you can just walk out and walk back in. it seems no one else minds my spot in there on days like today. though tbf saw can drive, gray doesn't mind being out in the open watching gilmore girls or whatever tf. i love privacy. i love being in my lil space where i can ~~jerk off~~ talk on discord w/o fear of being stalked. like last time, remember, i got nueds from matthew? if i was in the open i'd've been freaked right tf out.
i just realized it wouldn't be as bad now that i'm not watching house but i guess it'd be boring either way. hours of not being able to really jerk off or anything. i guess being in the playroom is still far better because i'd be able to close all the windows, have one headphone off, then get to self-pleasure. though to be completely fair here, my balls aren't looking loose enough to handle a jerk off that early.
sidenote idk if its just my prepubescent (i'm kidding but maybe?) balls that seem like they haven't dropped yet but the most i can cum is like... once. then my cock gets too sensitive and loads get too small for a while. usually my loads are tiny to begin with. sometimes literally nothing comes out. often my balls are so drawn into my body that i just can't jerk off because it feels so weird. sometimes it's flat to my shaft. like it's literally... i probably have a condition honestly.
update here: saw decided to take the playroom for herself this time like a bitch >:(
to be fair, she's doing a test or something, maybe she'll move out to where she BELONGS soon.
apparently something is wrong with louie's penis, i asked what it was but he hasn't told me yet.
also the painter is here and they can see thru the windows uwu, so i can't look at porn at all right now. i mean im paranoid af but like this is a reasonable fear lmfao
why is it that everytime i do something weird, someone walks by. like i'll be minding my own business, then a funny joke goes on screen, i laugh right as saw is going from the kitchen to the playroom, or i mouth along, or change position. i'm awkward as fucking shit and i hate it and i'm starving and gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i don't think it's a secret that i don't like being watched, and the fact that this fucking team of painters is invading this house with all the doors opened is just pissing me off. not only do i have to be downstairs, there's people everywhere. i'm insecure as shit anyway. i don't need people watching me 24/7.
wait why am i journaling then
so why do painters decide to bring the whole damn family along when they're doing their thing
like literally i hear kids, i heard a baby a few times today, they bring the whole crew shit's crazy doggggggg
oh and it's 2:50, jojo and annette are both doing their thing and they're still not done lmfao
3:20 and still here
last time it took until 4:30 but it was just jojo i think?
it's now 3:50 and her car is still right fuckin there
it's hot down here, mostly because the door is open in 26 degree weather. it isn't that bad and its only 40% humidity, actually been good but i'd rather it be 22 or below... it also sucks that babies are crying and people are talkin and unlike matilda, nothing is just going quiet to luck me out YES
god my phone is the slowest thing on fucking earth. it took like 30 seconds to load a weather app. an iphone x, mind you. i should do a fresh re-install.
OK SO I SAID YES EARLIER BECAUSE I WROTE THIS AT A DIFFERENT TIME AND ITS HARD TO EXPLAIN BUT THE BITCHY BITCH IS FUCKING GONE YAYYYYYYYYYYYY IT'S ONLY 4:01
well she left before 4:00 for sure but
anyway thats nice
its so nice and cool
i can take my pants off
i can jerk off
i can act awkward and no one know
its. 22 in here which is great
just the noises of painters outside my windows pisses me off lmfao
ROOM IS NOW 70
I'M CUTTING THE CELSIUS BULLSHIT HERE
FUCK YES IT'S NICE
MY BED IS SO COLD
I LOVE IT
I LOVE LIFE
ok this is for sure my longest post now
i really need a new phone lmao, maybe the pixel 4, or s10, or oppo reno x or whatever the fuck that thing is called. i'd say the huwaei mate p30 or whatever the new one is, but yeah... no. can't do that, not in this country!