GameTamilan #100Days

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Software Engineer, Amature video gamer, Loves psychology, philosophy and productivity. Believes in practice rather than inherent talent.

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Day 8 #100days of writing try 2

Today is a very productive day. Woke up at 5.45 am and got my younger kid ready to school. And started to office.

I have reduced drinking tea so I replaced tea with just hot water. I see no difference really. I will keep looking for any withdrawal effects or something like that. But I feel great. 

Read a chapter of atomic habits and today is mostly work day. 

Looking upto the semi final clash tomorrow between India and Newzealand in the cricket world cup.

I have also trying to reduce my weight so I am going on a balanced diet coupled with Jogs which I am starting tomorrow. I will add the running updates also tomorrow. 


Just noticed I haven't published my yesterdays entry so publishing it now. 


Cheers. Goodnight.




Day 7 #100days of writing try 2

Sunday is always a happening day since I get more rest than errands to do. But I made sure I made my working desk tidy and threw few unwanted stuff out.
Read few pages of atomic habits and also spent quality time with my kid explaining her the meaning of the poem "The Road not taken" by Robert Frost. It brought me more of my high school memories. I helped my kid with her homework.
And I was contemplating about what success for me looked like. I always wanted to be a sharp programmer and wanted to have a AI assistant that can do what I think. May be inspired by Iron man but I had this vision when I was a kid.
May be it will be a reality one day. But I guess I will have it one day.
Also today I was thinking about how to live the life and it made sense to live life like there is no tomorrow. We thought about tomorrow when the sapiens started doing agriculture. When we were hunter and gatherers there was very less emphasis on the future and the experts say that people at that time would have had less stress.

And today is the birthday of my fav cricketing legend MS Dhoni.

It's going to be a great week. Good night.

Day 6 #100days of writing try 2

Woke up at 7:30. The water scarcity has subsided as there were rains in the past week improving the ground water levels. So free from filling the water from corporation water pipes.

My 2TB harddisk crashed on me. It had few bad sectors. I am using 2TB seagate Firecuda it had its problems. Looking to switch to a solid state drive.

Anyways fixed them and got my laptop up and running. 

Had doctor appointments for my kid and taken them out for a bike ride and bought them new helmets to wear during bike rides.

Nothing much done today. Played a starcraft 2 game  which lasts 25 minutes at max.


Peace. Goodnight

Day 5 #100days of writing try 2

Woke up at 5:45 and helped to fill water in the storage container from the corporation tap which doubled up as an early morning excercise

Went to office early and do what I do best. Sent off a friend who is going abroad for higher studies. I have been sending off so many people close to me. They pursue the carriers which shows promise, well who does not?? hm.

Have gone for a walk, played one starcraft game and stared at the stars.. well stared at the clouds and meditated a bit.

Felt the soft drizzle of the summer convectional rain brought by the sea breeze. Perks of being in a coastal town. And thinking about the abundance in the universe. While we on earth cram for resources the entire universe is about abundance. Still giving it a thought. There would definitely be a time where the human race would exhaust the earth with the kind of un sustainable development that is on. But they might be successful in reaching a planet which might sustain life. But I would like humans change the course of history with their better clean and sustainable tech.


Peace and Good night.

 

Day 4 #100days of writing try 2

Happy July 4th.

Today is the first day my kid went to school junior KG. She was very excited to go to school. The school actually opened a week back but my little one was affected with rashes so she was not able to go to school on the actual open date.

She was so anxious to go to school and it was rooted in the new uniform bag, box and pencil. Small things makes her happy. And it brought me a deluge of emotions and memories right from my childhood. 

Was down with stomach upset and dehydration but the butterfies of her first day to school gave me energy to take her to school and getting her back. Did not go to office applied for sick leave.

Went for a 3K walk while listening to Sapiens. Interestingly it had mention of Declartion of independence and that reference came on the Independence day. Whats more interesting is the way the author translated the declaration in the perspective of biology.

Nothing much other than this. And its been a week since I read Atomic habits. Will continue it tomorrow.


Peace. Goodnight.

Day 3 #100days of writing try 2

Woke up at 6.00 am and played a game of starcraft. Helped my kid to do eye exercise and accupressure and made my bed which is the first win of the day.


Reached office early and closed few planned tasks. I have subscribed to HBR so got to read the latest issue. It contains stimulating thoughts and ideas.


Had a good chat with long time friend. She sounded so cryptic out of the blue asking me to realise my full potential and make use of what I learnt. I too have that same feeling for long not realising my true potential of not putting into use what I have got atleast.

Mediocrity is humans biggest enemy but the point is I have no regrets so far that is but I am not sure if it will be that way for long. The only guideline I measure myself against is that I should not have much regrets so will try to do my best.


Peace. Good night.


Day 2 #100days of writing try 2

Fresh from the win of my favourite sports team "Indian cricket team" The Men in Blue against one of the arch rivals Bangladesh. India gathers run hitting hard and gets 6 and 4 runs but play out too many balls without runs. But on the other hand Bangladesh accumulates runs in 1s and 2s but keeps the dot balls percentage low. They gave a tough fight but Men in Blue prevailed. 

Still thrown off of all the routines I have planned. Skipped walking and reading. Too tired to do anything right now other than writing. For writing makes me feel complete everyday. 

Not a productive day at office. Was in full of anxiety leading up to the game of cricket. 

But accomplished important tasks that I have planned to do today. 

The books "Sapiens" have put so many things in perspective. There has been lot of talk about The plants and animals that humans domesticated. But in reality its the aggicultural cereals and pulses that have domesticated the otherwise hunting and gathering human race. It is such a revelation on why epidemic diseases became prevalent after agriculture started and why they had no chance of spreading when people where constantly moving around.


If you get a chance add the book to your reading list. 


Peace and love.


Day 1 #100days of writing try 2

Thrown off of the routine yesterday. Got acute water crisis in my city due to ground water going scarce. So had to run all the errands associated with making enough water to drink bath and clean utensils. Did not get a chance to write yesterday. 

So restarting the 100 days of writing challenge today. Got to stay home today to fix the water pump that pumps the water from the borewell to the water storage tank in the first floor. So no office today. And since most of the team is in US this would be a light week due to July 4th weekend holidays. I guess this will be a right time to get some breather and get rejuvenated.

I feel like I am just easily thrown off the routine and impulsive. May be a midlife crisis or acute symptoms of it. I have achieved all my childhood goals. It's a mistake that I haven't dreamt high enough. Now when I set more goals they don't matter to me much or it is very hard to internalise. So goal setting should be done early enough or we need to put in very deep effort to find our purpose. And then work towards it. 

I am resetting my goals again and again but I guess I need to either find one soon or be a goal nomad going with the flow. 


In the coming days I will describe about the person I want to become and let you guys know how things go. Anyway we will be in touch daily.


Day 12 #100days of writing

Good day today. 

Completed my walk, played good starcraft games. Listened to Sapiens audio book for 30 mins. 

And importantly learnt a new Computer language from my Kid. Been in computer programming industry for a decade and half now and now I come across for the first time an educative programming language called "Logo"  based in which there are tools developed as open source software at MIT, Berkeley.

I am fascinated by it meaning that it was around when I was a school kid I guess but never came across it. Might have been a premier software during that time. It could do 3D view ports and 3d diagrams etc. 


This teaches me that there is no end to learning and all we need to do is open our senses and keep looking for things we expect it life.


Peace

Goodnight.

22:41 29th June 2019 Indian Standard Time.

Day 11 #100days of writing

Snoozed the alarm one more day. This week I am defeated but will rise back up strong. Why am I defeated? Because I did not plan well and did not follow my night routine. Slept late, watched videos, checked emails etc. I will do better today. 

I am keeping up with walking daily. And replaced tea everyday morning with hot lime water. 

I am trying to make habits vote for the person who I want to become. 

Started to listen audiobook "Sapiens" rated 5 stars on Audible. Its more of a history book on the evolution which doubles up as a crash course on evolution.

Did not read Atomic habits today. Already feeling the emptiness of not reading it. 


Spent quality time with parents wife and kids. Productive day at work. And going to bed for my well deserved rest. 

Later.


22:35 28th June 2019 Indian Standard time. 

Day 10 #100days of writing

Learnt a good deal about habit formation reading the book "Atomic habits" I completed reading 20% of the book.


Every habit goes through this 4 stages

Cue->Craving->Response->Reward ->(this reinforces reward with cue)


By knowing this the actual doing part is the response stage. Day 10

To form a habit we need to change the cue craving response reward into actionable ideas

To form a habit

1. Make it obvious  (Make the cue obvious)

2. Make it attractive (Make the habit attractive so it increases the craving)

3. Make it easy (Make the response easy by removing needless friction and easy to do)

4. Make it satisfying (Remember to celebrate once done with response. so that in addition to inherent reward of the activity you would have one more reward)


This is very exciting.  One more important part I read which I guess is very useful is "Implementation intent" which denotes associating a place and time for every activity increases the chance of you doing the activity. 


You would say I will [Do a habit] at [Time] in [Place].  


Apart from this I have a good productive day at office and spent quality time with my family and played a game of Starcraft in Co op mode. 


Heading of to bed. Good night folks.


22:19 27th June 2019 Indian Standard Time.



Day 9 #100days of writing

Today another 4:45 am alarm snoozed. But got up at 7.00 am and in office at 9:00 am. A productive day personally and professionally. Got so many things accomplished. 


I loved the part of learning new today on my job. Also had a fun time with my team. We went out to a pirate themed restaurant awesome ambience and even more awesome food. 


The place I live in is depenedent upon the rain for water needs. monsoons failed for 2 years in a row so there was acute water scarcity. But the rains today came out of nowhere and drenched the hell out of the dry land. The water table below is sure to improve in the coming days.


And I noticed one thing this 100 day writing challenge is like a conversation with myself. Not sure if anyone reads it. But I love to recollect or look back what happened.  It is definitely helping. 


Catch you all later. Heading to bed. 


22:58 26th June 2019 Indian Standard Time.

Day 8 #100days of writing

Again woke up at 4:45 no motivation 7:30 is the final wake up time. But pulled my socks up and left home by 8:30 and reached office by 9.00. An off day at office filled with meetings and interviewing candidates to fill in vacant positions. Day gone fully.


But walked for 4 kms while listening to "Psycho cybernetics" originally written by Malcom Maltz. 


That is the book that broght the idea of self image to lime light along with many other techniques like "Creative imagination", "Mental Rehearsal" and "Mental movies".


Again the reason I listened to it is because of the reference made in the current book I am reading "Atomic habits". "Concentrate of What you want to become rather than what you want in life" is the central theme that stresses upon identity change rather than the outcome change. 


Heading to bed now. Wish the world a happy peaceful and invigorating sleep.


23:02 25th June 2019 Indian Standard Time.

Day 7 #100days of writing

When I woke up around 4.45 am there is zero motivation to get out of my bed. so skipped my morning ritual and woke up at 7.30 and got stuck in traffic for an hour or so in the scorching sun and reached office at 10:40.

Now that will be my motivation for the rest of days to wake up early and do my morning ritual.

Added a new habit in my inventory sheet and to do today sheet (rememember pomodoro technique) with the item "Walked 5 kms". Walked around 4 kms today. 


Zero reading of any sort and full of official work. But I was damn productive today. Done the task which I was procrastinating for ever. And learnt quite a few new things. Going to sleep now. I am happy that this challenge along with pomodoro technique and atomic habits are getting me to vote to the "Writer" in me. 

May be I am a writer :) (or atleast that is what my actions will vote for).


23:17 24th June 2019 Indian Standard Time. 

Day 6 #100days of writing

Started reading the book Atomic habits. 

So much fascinating as the book started to dwelve deep into the process of habit formation and how they get ingrained in our minds.


Key points are 

1. Concentrate of the process rather than the goal while forming habits.

2. Habits changing process or the Habits itself manifest on 3 layers

    Outcomes

    Process

    Identity

Habits stick when they become part of your identity. Habit change or behaviour change need to occur on all three levels. Goal definition plays an important role.

The Goal should not be to read the book. The goal should be to become a reader. 


And I found the techniques of psyco cybernetics being used in the book atomic habits.  The importance of self image and the coherence you need to have to make the habit be sustainable. 


So the goal of 100 days writing is at outcome level. The goal is to become a writer so that I would write naturally. 


Unless there is intrinsic motivation it is impossible to make a habit stick. Here is a snip from the book.

"The ultimate form of intrinsic motivation is when a habit becomes part of your identity. It's one thing to say I'm the type of person who wants this. It's different to say I'm the type of person who is this. "


Every action that reinforces your belief of who you are its like a vote. So to make your self image like the way you want it, do actions that vote for the self image you are trying to have. You just need a majority vote it doesn;t matter if you cast few votes for unproductive habits. You are what you do most of the times. 


22:17 23rd June 2019 Indian Standard Time

Day 5 #100days of writing

Almost forgot today to write stuff. Was watching India vs Afganistan world cup cricket match. What a nail baiter!


I am exhausted so much stress lol.  India came up on top at the end. winning by 11 runs.

Was searching for a book to start reading. Going to read the book "Atomic habits"


Also searching for top hundred books to read in English. Idea that crept into my mind from watching "The Equaliser" movie.


Also had a couple of motivational video watching time. Best quote from them.


"Throw away credit cards, the make you get behind the game.  you pay at least 20% interest."  - Warren Buffet.


"Ever Tried Ever failed no matter. Try again fail again fail better."  - Samuel Beckett via Peter Dinklage.


"Don't search for defining moments, they will never come. The moments that define you have already happened" - Peter Dinklage


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oPG7x_VL7sk


23:39 22nd June 2019 Indian Standard Time

Day 4 #100days of writing

Friday.... awesome day.  No? Yes it is.


Had a productive and fun filled day. Finished up Pomodoro Iluustrated book that I mentioned yesterday and put in place templates to put the theory into practice.


My kid also enjoys Pomodoro to organise her study times. Learnt a lot of stuff. Trying to assimilate them slowly but steadily.


Listened to this song. "Rise up 2k16 feat Jaba.


"My dream is to fly so high above the rainbow."

"I try to fly a while high direction sky" 

The lines the echoes with the notion of human freedom. Loved it. 


On the way to killing mediocrity. One important thing that I learned today the best of people are mostly down to earth.


23:07 June 21 2019 Indian Standard Time. 

Day 3 #100days of writing

Today is the when I wanted to sleep more. But I tried to finish my morning rituals which I track through Fabulous(https://www.thefabulous.co/) app But skipped few like checking my weight and walking.


I was lazy but pulled myself to go to office. Had a good breakfast my wife prepared and started on my 11 yers old Bike.

Had a great time at office meeting and usual stuff. I got good amount to time to read pomodoro technique which I am trying to incorporate into my day to day activities to improve my work ethic, to stay focussed and to reduce stress. 

Almost finished the book Pomodoro Technique illustrated. Just the last chapter pending. Will post a quick reference card in a day or 2. 


I think it's really a good fool proof technique to manage my day and navigate through complexities of the task at hand and seeing the big picture. 

When you get a chance do read about it. Wiki Link here


Going to do my ritual before sleep to meditate and then sleep. Bye for now. 


22:31 20th June 2019 Indian Standard Time

Day 2 #100days of writing

I have been reflecting on my past. I am in mid-30s, and I never pushed myself. I was able to survive with just one-quarter of my capacity. It has always been easy. There were challenging times, but I thrived with only an occasional burst of my best effort. 


So far, I was able to survive with my mediocre efforts. Maybe I aimed too low given where I started and where I am, I think I should have aimed even more. It's not that I'm not doing well in the walks of life, I feel that emptiness may be because of what people call "Mid-life crisis". I have a stable well paying job, beautiful family, but I feel like a great sophisticated machine which has been well oiled and well maintained but never used.


So I now decide to do something about it. To use the endowments that were bestowed upon me to its fullest capacity. That is the justice I would do to the Creator and the soul inside me. People strive for happiness, but what I think is, they strive for closure and fulfilment.


I see the coming days have lots of exciting things that could make my life even more fulfilling.


5:53 am 19th June 2019 Indian Standard Time

Day 1 #100days of writing

I decided to write for 100 days. I have taken this challenge to build a habit of writing. 


Why the habit of writing? Reading makes sense meaning you gain more knowledge. But what writing has to offer?


Hm, let me think.


I guess it makes you declutter your mind. To stash or empty your thoughts somewhere so that either you can be free about you stored

it somewhere or you get the feeling of sharing it with the physical world even if you don't share it with people. It gives your thought next natural evolution of interacting with the physical world and stop being a thought that fades away. It's like the thought being born into the world. So I would like to write not for becoming a writer or a blogger. But to declutter my mind and give a chance to the ideas that my brain think of to manifest in the material, physical world. Challenges have been my only source of motivation from my childhood; otherwise, I don't do things consistently even if they are essential.


So here I go — Day 1 of writing. 

5:42 am 18th June 2019 Indian Standard Time.