15 This is Not the Time to Saddle the Will
February 16, 2022•333 words
i offer you my soul the water from my eyes, my blood, my saliva. the liquid of my body. i open to you and strive to live with you at center. guide me. settle into me. open me.
IT IS AS IF YOU HAVE BEEN ILL AND INFIRM FOR MANY YEARS, FOR DECADES. YOU HAVE STAYED IN YOUR ROOM, OFTEN IN YOUR BED, AND HAVE GONE INTO SOCIETY AT TIMES. AND NOW AS YOU START TO HEAL YOU FACE THE POSSIBILITY OF DOING TOO MUCH TOO SOON. YOU ARE SO TIRED OF ILLNESS AND MEDICINE AND HOLDING BACK. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THE SICK ACT WELL BEFORE THEY ARE READY? IT IS THE SAME FOR YOU.
BEFORE YOU LEAP INTO LIFE ACTION, ALLOW YOURSELF TO OPEN TO LIFE, TO TASTE IT, TO DRAW IT TO YOU, TO FALL IN LOVE WITH IT AS SLOWLY AS IS NEEDED.
THIS IS NOT TIME TO FORCE. THIS IS NOT TIME TO WHITE KNUCKLE. THIS IS NOT TIME TO SADDLE THE WILL. NOW IS THE TIME TO SIT ON THE PORCH, TO TAKE WALKS IN NATURE, TO RIDE DOWN THE SPRING, HAND OVER THE BOAT SIDE, DRAGGING YOUR HAND IN THE COLD WATER. NOW IS THE TIME TO PUT A SINGLE CANDLE IN YOUR ROOM AND WATCH THE FLAME MOVE AND LIGHT THE ROOM. NOW IS THE TIME TO NAP WITH A CAT ON YOUR LAP.
NOW IS THE TIME TO OPEN TO THE WELLSPRING IN YOURSELF, TO LEARN WHAT IS REALLY THERE, AND TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN.
the simple. the wabi sabi, the cracked and repaired, the plant in the room, the whisper, the dawn and dusk, the rising moon. the line of poetry. the chocolate on the tongue. water. always water. i long to open my senses to life. to feel the joy in living. to nourish my heart and soul.
please show me and continue to teach me. i hope to be a willing and eager student.
YES.
from 2021.01.22 fri