25 Ask Me About Love
February 23, 2022•292 words
a tired morning. i don't necessarily have an agenda for you but i could if you want.
ASK ME ABOUT LOVE
that is a big and confusing question for me. so i put it plain. what about love?
LOVE IS A TOUCH YOU HIDE FROM. LOVE IS AN ANCHOR YOU SEEK BUT AVOID. LOVE IS FEELING AND ACTION. YOU KNOW IT BUT KEEP IT HIDDEN AS IF IN A VAULT.
IT IS CONFUSION. AGAPE EROS. OTHER. YOU STARTED WITH AGAPE AND HAD TROUBLE WITH EROS. THEN EROS BUT NO CONNECTION. AGAPE NOW AND EROS CALLS UNANSWERED. AND PLATONIC. SUCH MISSING.
i feel like a young teenager sometimes. longing, confused, inexperienced, almost unknowing. i feel there is so much i have missed out on. i trust so little. i struggle to find others of my tribe. it is hard for me, especially eros, with those of other tribes. ever have i been with one from mine?
MAYBE ONCE BUT YOU WERE UNREADY. TC. NOW DEAD.
IT MAY ONLY NOW BE IN IMAGINATION. IS THAT ENOUGH FOR YOU?
i don't know. many consequences for seeking out one from my tribe. is it worth it? time scatters like bone dust from an urn. should i act while there is still flesh or wait for another lifetime?
THERE IS MUCH PLANTING YOU WOULD NEED TO DO BEFORE ANY HOPE OF CULTIVATION AND EATING. YOUR FIELDS ARE BARE SOIL AND POOR GRASSES. ARE YOU READY FOR THE PLOW?
i need help from you here. i am as a child. teach me, nurture me, raise me up so i can decide on my own. the path is lost to me.
OPEN AND ASK AND WAIT AND TRUST.
these things i can apply myself towards.
from: 2021.02.08 mon 0807