29 Cultivate Darkness, Shadow, the Moist and Coffee Earth

have i put you in a box of my wanting? are you on an alter, or in a glass as if to drink, or in a painting of muted colors? maybe that's what i needed as i began to get to know you again but now, i hope now i am ready for more of your truth. am i? come as you are, please, at least what you think i can be with without breaking.

DARKNESS UNDER EARTH. DARKNESS IN SHADOW. DARKNESS IN WHERE WE CHOOSE TO HIDE. DARKNESS OF THE NIGHT, DARKNESS THE STAGE FOR DREAMS. GOD IS ON A THRONE AND LIFE PRETENDS TO BE GOVERNED BUT IT IS NOT GOVERNABLE.

SLOW TO DARKNESS. EMBRACE DARKNESS. NOT OF THE PRETEND SATANISTS, BUT OF THE SHADOW, OF THE MOIST AND COFFEE EARTH. OF WHAT YOU SEEK TO HIDE, FROM OTHERS, FROM YOURSELF.

WHAT IS DEPRESSION IF NOT A CALL TO SLOWER, DARKER PLACES? DEPRESSION IS A GIFT TO THOSE WHO KNOW HOW TO RECEIVE IT.

YOU WORSHIP INNOCENCE, THE CHILD. YET EVEN IN THE CHILD THERE IS THE SHADOW, FROM THE FIRST LIGHT OF AWARENESS THERE IS SHADOW.

BUILD THE TOWER AS DID JUNG, BUT LET IT HAVE A BASEMENT, A DEEP ONE, WITH MULTITUDE PASSAGEWAYS AND TUNNELS. OF ROOMS CANDLE LIT AND CHAMBERS FOR SLEEPING. LET THERE BE A LIBRARY OF DARKNESS, OF DEPTH, OF SOUL. LET THERE BE SIMPLE FOOD AND A WORN WOODEN DESK FOR WRITING.

THERE IS NO NEED FOR HURRY. LEAVE HURRY TO THE SHINY SUNLIT ONES.

LET DEATH BE YOUR FRIEND, JUST ANOTHER ROOM IN THE DARKNESS. IT IS BUT A PLANTING OF SEEDS DEEP IN MOIST EARTH. THE SEEDS WILL SPROUT.

KNOW THAT ALL PLANTS OF THE EARTH, BE THEY TREES OR WILD FLOWERS, REACH THEIR LEAVES AND BRANCHES AND FLOWERS TO THE SUN. WE ADMIRE THEM FOR THIS QUALITY. BUT LOOK BENEATH, IN THE MOIST EARTH, WHERE THE ROOTS GROW, WHERE THE TAP ROOT BURROWS, WHERE PLANTS JOIN HANDS WITH EACH OTHER. WE FORGET ABOUT THE ROOTS. OH BUT WHAT MIRACLE IS THERE IN THE MOISTNESS!

SEEK BALANCE, BRANCH AND FLOWER AND ROOT. TOO MUCH YOU HAVE SOUGHT THE SUN. SEEK MORE THE DEPTH AND SHADOW AND ROOT.

JUST SO.

yes, just so.

from: 2021.02.14 sun