Everything's still the same, I can't believe it's been a year and a half since I've been ranting about the same thing.... It seems nothing have changed, I still have the same thoughts.. I need to plan better, Here's to day 1 again ...

So this is it, the lowest point of my fuckin life, been isolating myself from my friends and opportunities to meet up with new people, been staying at home too much eating junk food, watching porn and playing games. There's so much negative talk going on in my head. I hate myself. I met someone great at the end of 2021. She was perfect. She made me want to be a better person. I screwed it all up because of my inexperience in handling bad social situations, I might have made it more awkward by be...