Shadow Self

The following is from the perspective of the past, like many, under complete control of my shadow (inner child who never matured with the rest of us, the little girl or boy who disowned themselves, as an unconscious means of protecting ourselves, the shadow served  to keep us "safe".
It is brought forth to direct the adults around us, to shield us from the pain, allowing us to disassociate. The child that you once were, using primal/ survival instincts (a child doesn't have healthy coping strategies in their own so the psychee/ unconscious come in.) The shadow is a result of, mental, emotional,  physical, & spiritual abuse,  unstability & toxicity during the developmental years.. The shadow is the aspect of self that fragmented from the rest of you to preserve itself , short term, all the while destroying your life through personality disorders, causing you to become easily triggered & uncontrollably angry (like a child)  or causing you to be vindictive, calculated, killing any chance for you to experience vulnerability.  unhealed trauma & disowned aspects of ourselves never go away,  we don't "get over it", even if denial sets in.& just because you can't recall a memory,  doesn't mean that memory doesn't enact its effect through your entire life: be it your reactions, behaviours, & thought processing.. your shadow is you. You can no more rid yourself of your shadow than you can of your physical organs.