Him

More and more I realize how much I love him, and it’s never been about the superficial things. It’s about that soft, calm feeling I get when I’m with him, the way my heart feels at home without needing to try. It’s in the way I watch him talk about something he’s passionate about, and how his eyes light up and his voice changes like the world fades away and everything that exists is what he loves. It’s in the quiet moments, when he shares stories from his childhood, pieces of himself he felt safe enough to trust me with. Moments like that mean everything to me.

If I’m being completely honest, writing this makes me emotional in a way I didn’t ever expect. Because even though he is the amazing man he is today, every time I see him smile I don’t just see who he is now, I see that little boy he once was and all the dreams he carried with him. I see how far he’s come and everything he’s had to overcome to become the person standing in front of me. I hope he knows how incredibly proud I am of him, not just for what he’s achieved, but for who he is. For his kindness, his strength, his heart, and everything in between.

Even though I didn’t get to see him grow up from childhood, I still get the privilege of watching him live out his dreams and goals, and that alone feels like such a blessing. I’m so thankful that I get to be by his side, that I get to encourage him, support him, and remind him that he’s doing amazing even on the days he doubts himself. I hope he knows that I believe in him with everything I have, and that my love for him is steady and unconditional.

I hope he knows every single day how loved he is. I hope he feels it in the way I look at him, in the way I listen, in the way I care. I hope that love radiates from me without me even needing to say a word. And funny enough, I’ve never been good at expressing love at all, it’s never come easily to me, but with him it feels different. With him, love feels natural, safe, and honest. He truly is one in a lifetime, my soulmate, and I can’t wait to spend my entire lifetime loving him, growing with him, and choosing him over and over again.