My counted days - Saturday 1 Nov 2025

A thought that has been in my head is that I am very passive in my life and I watch a lot of shows that have passive people that are self actualised by a man. I feel like this relates to the fact that female characters aren't complete without the presence of a man or without the aid of a man. I was watching barbie and I noticed that Prince Antonio did it when he thought she needed civilisation and to be shown the true real world to become what he thought as human. It is also really interesting that he ended up loving her because she is "wild" and "free" and in a way she represents what he can't do. I think this also relates to the book "Eros" which said desire comes from wanting something you don't have. And how romance these days doesn't have desire as people are wanting things similar to them. I guess that is why most love stories have an seemingly irreconcilable differences between the two main leads. This helps build desire in their motives.

Another example of this is: "Early Bird" (a Turkish drama). Sanem idealises the idea of an albatross to be the one who will save her and bring her a new life. In the end it was the disillusion of Sanem and Can's relationship that actually help her reach her potential. Sanem seems to be a passive character in her own life. Only being active when pushed by other people. She respectively breaks her ideals and morals because she is told to.

This is something I can relate to. This week I have walked around with the thought of not being self actualised by a man in my head and it has pushed me to do more things that I have decided to do. Becoming more of an active person is hard and weird and unfamiliar to me but I am excited to see what comes out of it. Discipline is hard. I have also been doing one thing for myself everyday and it can't be the same thing twice in a row and it is hard but i have enjoyed it. These are something I want to keep going.