Bad Cover Version

I didn't sleep well. I woke up and ignored my morning routine and I just went
right into my day. Skipping the morning routine is always a recipe for
disaster usually. The day came and went and everything seemed particular
harder. I wasn't sharp, I always felt like I was a step behind. After, a long
day I like to take a few minutes and get some headphones on. What I am
listening to doesn't matter but it gives my mind permission to not think about
the world around me. I had a question on my mind that I just really wanted to
talk to someone about. One of those situations where a mentor or advisor would
come in handy. It was eating at me a little bit because I just didn't trust my
gut really. That is something that I fight with daily. I ended up listening to
a number of podcasts which lately, seems to be about 85% of my listening
habits. The discussions were honest and just made me feel better with all of
the confusion. Then someone said, "we are just fucked up like you." I am
scared of something and there is something that holds me back sometimes. But,
there are a few things that I hold dear and that bring me joy and I am going
to double down on those until I can't anymore.