New Years Resolutions

Hi. Today is January 10th, 2023. I'm writing this post in a Starbucks, sipping a Venti Java Chip Frappe. It's actually really good, the base is espresso rather than the normal frappe base because they ran out but I find that I prefer this version. There's no special occasion or anything... well besides double stars day #capitalism.

I usually don't treat myself this early in the semester, especially since I've done nothing in the last few days. Instead, I'm just getting the drink for the heck of it. One of my goals this new year is to be more kind to myself. Last year happened to be one of the most stressful, chaotic years of my very short seventeen-year-old life. So for mental health purposes, I decided that a goal would be to practice self-care more often. So far it's working, my skin is clearer and healthier, my sleep has been more relaxing, and my mind has been relatively clear of minimal things.

Speaking of mental health, one of my goals is to start writing my thoughts out every day. I find that I often get overwhelmed by both the outside world and my thoughts. Maybe journaling online will help deviate some of that stress into words and release my tension. I started this blog hoping to write at least 100 words every day for 100 days. I know some days may be harder than others, but I will try my best to finish this challenge.

I'm starting this blog on the 10th of January. With New Year, many people start making resolutions and start the first day of the year. However, I'm writing this ten days late (I'm not like other girls kekeke). Resolutions are a funny thing. I've read so many articles about how January 1st is the best day of business and most business day for gyms, but by the end of the month, the new crowd has given up on their goals and reverted to normalcy. I wonder what about the new year in particular inspires people to start on these resolutions. Why wait until January 1st to start living a better lifestyle? Why not start now? Perhaps it's the idea of a new start equals a new life or a chance. Or maybe it's just tradition. New year, new me.

I have to say though, I'm guilty of the New Year resolution thing. This whole blog is a testament to that. Recently though, I've been thinking about what is holding me back from starting. It's most definitely laziness. I am a lazy person I realize. I'd rather lay in bed all day doing nothing rather than go out and touch grass. My sedentary lifestyle is not healthy and I want to improve. However, right now I don't have the funds or the will to ask my parents to help me get a gym membership. Maybe once I get a job and turn 18 I'll try, but for now, I will have to seek other means. The thought of the gym isn't really appealing to me though. I don't want to exercise with other people or lift weights, but rather through activities. Now that I'm thinking about it... am I an introvert? During the COVID quarantine, I changed from an introvert to an extrovert, but maybe the horror of 2022 has reverted me. I will need to retest soon.

Going back to lifestyle, I want to start going on walks or bike rides soon. I don't know when that will start. Life will take its course whether that be ten days late or ten days early. I'm the only one who truly knows what is best for me and I will start when I need to for sake of my mental health.

Wow, 600 words already. I'll end today's post with an observation of the patrons of the Starbucks I'm in. There's one guy in the corner, I feel like I've seen him before here. He seems like a regular because another patron said hi to him earlier. On a long table is an old man who stands out among all of the laptops and headphones users. He's reading books and marking notes with a pencil. One of his books is actually a thesaurus, specifically a yellow Merriam-Webster Thesaurus. It lays on top of a leather zipper bag. I think he's pretty interesting, probably a writer.

I wonder what their new year's resolutions are. Maybe the man's is to stop spending so much time and money at Starbucks. Maybe the old writer's goal is to finish his book. I'm just making this up, to be honest, they are the only ones who know what's best for themselves.

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