Today, I have no choice but to return to whatever I have to do. Mostly, I'm afraid (like every other day) but today, I am optimistic for tomorrow. I have decided to distance myself from my colleagues, as well as my friendS. I had been getting the feeling of inadequacy, I have been feeling neglected, and I know I shouldn't be burdening them with my needs because all we really are is alone. We're friends. They're not my parents. I know I have to deal with everything on my own, and I have to. Relyi...

It's been quite a few months since I've felt this miserable. I thought I gained the wisdom I needed that would last me a lifetime, that I truly started to understand how to carry on life, apathetic about all the bad things, especially the inescapable fact of waking up in the body of someone you despise, as the person you hate the most. I thought I had learned to embrace all parts of me, the bad, the evil, the ugly, intertwined with the good, but my mind started to reject this resolution, and so ...