This is a mini rant. With my first girlfriend, we would often have simultaneous orgasms after less than 1 minute of penetration. It was quite something and nobody believed us.

This never happened again with anyone. And throughout the years talking to people, both guys and girls, I was told that guys are generally preoccupied with not cumming too quick. And girls complain about their partners cumming too quick.

I wish I had that problem. I can probably count on 2 hands the number of partners I've ejaculated inside. Otherwise, I just stay hard and can sometimes go for hours until im just fed up and finish myself off stroking myself in the girl's mouth.

Of course sex is still fun, but I end up just pleasing the other person more than I get pleasure myself.

One of the reasons I spontaneously trarted publishing on this blog, is to just walk back into my imagination and try to figure out what's going on in my mind when I'm having sex.

A few months ago, I met this extremely smart women at a bar. We hit it off well and she told me we were in the grey zone. She was quite forward and very confident. We were playing foosball at some point and she made some sexy slutty sounds as she tried hitting the ball. Looking back, I think I should have pushed forward and "take her behing the barn" to pull the trigger. She had 2 braids, perfect pair of handles to control her head...we were alone in the bar's basement.

you see, as im writing this, I just remind myself vividly of the situation and I get myself aroused. Im writing this on my phone, as im waiting in a restaurant at 9am waiting for my takeout breakfast.

I also think that porn is harmful in many ways. Despite being in favor of letting people produce pornography, I choose to avoid it. I do sometimes look at some GIFs to spark up my dick, but long term I'd like to make it a goal to consume zero visuals, and stick to just using my imagination and writing some stuff. Writing some fictional sex stories will come to this blog soon....

We spent quite some time together that night and left the bar, walked around and hung out in a park.

We ended up at my place, and ordered some fast food on ubereats which took hours to come as we kept talking.

It was very interesting to talk to her. The most important she told me is "your the kind of guy that thinks about nuclear fission when your having sex"

Thinking back on this, she's right. Not necessarely "nuclear fission" specifically, but my mind isn't liberated by any amount of sex.

We lied down and she fell asleep in seconds. While I lay there and pondered on everything she had just told me.

I didn't even want to have sex with her despite how attractive she was. I was impressed about everything she could tell me about myself that I never even thouht about before on my own.

So yeah, a mini rant. I wish I could just stick it inside your holes and blow my load in 30 seconds :) but what make it good to me is the energy I get when I see, hear and feel the woman cum hard

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