still..

..radio silence since my last post. Lot to do around here.

Well, at least, the "war" between M and S is over. They get along now.

But I still want to die.

I do not know why. It just passes in my head « I wish I would not be alive ».

No particular reason.

Just.. I wish I would not live.

Weird.

I just can not stand this anymore.

I do not know what to do.

Call back the special place? Already? I not event out since a month. Am I at this point weak? Less then three weeks and I need to go back?

I have drank twenty ishhh beers in the last week. I do not remember the last time I have drank that much.. I was too drunk to remember. No more buying beer from now.

-FBF