My Idea Blockage After Pelosi's Art 93/100 ( #100days writing challenge)

My inspiration was Marilena Pelosi, an artist. I wanted to understand her mind and emulate her meaning‑creation process, so I drew for a month in her style. She goes into a trance and generates otherworldly, tense settings—by her disciplined lines and flat colors. She is possibly a brilliant thinker, based on the cubist awareness I have tried to grasp regarding her motivation and history.

Trying to understand her work, I drew every day for thirty days. Looking back on that book in which I drew after her style, I appreciate some of my work, but it is not my invention. I also got inspired by pencil drawing and the mechanical pencil; it made drawing and doodling easier.

Now, however, I am just writing for my creative outlet. Talking about Pelosi’s work is difficult because the sexual tension she expresses in her amazing drawings produces ideas that are so unusual to me. I am at a loss when I try to share them with my peers and mental‑health consumers.