Friday, at beats Internet time 167, nighttime
January 24, 2026•187 words
I’m honestly feeling unusual low-low‑motivation right now. I’ve was using caffeine as a stand‑in with my typical low motivation, so now it is a slump. I don’t want to keep wailing and moaning online. I haven’t smiled much today—maybe twice at most.
On the bright side, thinking about a new dog, which is a small hope. In reality, a big change isn’t possible right now. So I’m thinking about getting a super‑thin, high‑end smartphone. It might give me a short‑term “consumer high,” but I’ll probably shelve that project soon.
Right now, I’m cutting back on the caffeine, hoping to sleep well tonight. I’m optimistic I’ll feel better tomorrow. I’ve been scrolling online. Writing about topics that quickly lose a reader’s interest isn’t helping either.
If I stepped out tonight, the only place I could imagine going would be a convenience store. I’m not really into bars or beer joints—especially not after the past thirty years. (I don’t drink alcohol.)
Instead, I might head to a spot where I can sit between places and listen to “Left of Center,” a song by S. Vega, just watching people pass by.