Getting stuff done by not being mean to yourself

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Development Log | Getting stuff done by not being mean to yourself

This title is in honour of Susan K's post that I've heard about second hand from Oliver Burkeman in a lesson called 'The Habit of Force' in Waking Up App.

I've been slowly working towards trusting myself by not following a schedule rigidly and doing what feels 'good' in the moment, that I'll still get things done. It's one of those surprising strategies that sounds like hedomism or do whatever you like. But in experiments, when a person's schedule is cleared and they're told 'Do whatever you want today'. They end up doing what they normally do. It's the being "forced' into it that can feel suffocating and make us rebell against our 'internal drill sergeant (as Oliver states).

This was made really apparent to me when the place I was working at suddenly suffered an outage and I was left with free time, unknown amount of it. So I couldn't plan for it like my inner drill sergeant wanted, so they left me alone shaking their head in disappointment knowing how I would squander the time. Those (what turned out to be 3 hours of downtime) ended up being some of the most fun and in retrospective productive hours that I had. And I wasn't shouting or forcing myself to do things. Huh?

Since then I'm still planning my day, even though the plan is hour by hour, the day of, I look at the plan and let myself do whatever I need to or feel that I want to do. Often easily hitting what I needed to for that day or doing what I needed to with resting. This has greatly reduced a lot of work to burnout cycle and crying because I feel that I'm 'not doing enough'.

Trust in myself and being in my own corner feels weird. When that drill sergeant comes out to berate, instead of standing behind and nodding or joining in the abuse, I'm the one who protects myself from that critic. Or will defend vehamently and protect myself. We're getting what we need done, having the time of our lives and feeling less burnt out.

Regarding today I posted [7] older posts to ensure I've getting properly caught up.

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