an open letter to you...

there was a time I used to miss you!
there was a time I used to worry about you!
there was a time I used to be longing for you!
but there never was a time I used to stop thinking of you...

all these time you never were there for me,
still I cared for you and loved you cos
I only know how to love, but dont know
how to stop loving you!

once I had a feeling you may’ve loved me too,
never got the guts to ask you!
the fear of losing you is more killing
than actually losing you...

you said many a times “I like you”
yes, I am trying to transform that likeness to love!
you may’ve got all the reasons to deny me
but I got none to hate you...

when I was chasing you, you never knew it was me!
when you know me, you never realized
I am the one who was trailing all along!

we spoke a lot, shared a lot
spent time together a lot
we’ve got more memories to cherish
and my love for you would never perish

my cowardice never allowed me to say it loud
but if I get a chance again I never would miss.
you may wonder what took me this long!
the farther you moved away, the closer i got to you...

you swoop me away the first time we met,
I couldn’t even talk to you properly, I choked
once we got to know each other, there’s
never a passage I could miss talking to you.

I may sound pretty confident, but I do mumble when I face you
I can write better in words than I speak
I don’t know whether you got time to read this or not! anyways,
just the thought
just the thought of you reading this made my bliss

sharing the same interests doesn’t mean
we’ve to share the life, but
it would be nice if it’s the case!

still loving you... with all my heart...
missing you...
and kissing you... in my dreams...

• diimaan (11/01/10)