Wednesday, Dec 27, 2023 at 4:08 PM

Just found out that the one for me will get married this Sunday. She told me herself. I have mixed feeling about this. I know that being with her is a long shot especially in my condition (family history, mental health issue, spiritual turbulence), so that's why I'm a little relieved that she's chosen to move on. I'd be surprised if she had waited for me (for me to finish my study and have a stable job). But on the other hand, I do feel disappointed because I didn't do much to keep that relationship. I barely did anything. This turn of event would mean that I will start from scratch. She was perfect for me but what I'm feeling right now is I'm more content with this than anxious (I have both at the moment but the former overwhelms the latter). I'm sure I'll move on with this pretty soon.