FIRST ONE \ JUN14.25
June 15, 2025•2,255 words
well well well guys, today im doing something that should be remarkable in the era human being [at least for me], i [the king of procastination][self hosted title by myself] gonna write 2 blogs at one day, yeah, 2 full blogs in one fricking day, i dont think any other procastinator can achieve this, so what i wanna say is, "im highest in the room, tn tntn tn tn", okay lets begin, so welcome to my another daily.... wait, its not part of that one #the121, well i guess i just got habited to do it, but no more, let me write it in a bigger version so u can experience my aura
welcome to my first blog that isnt part of #the121 but still valueable enough to blow ur mind & share knowledge from the smartest & greatest person in ur timeline me, and its first blog that is written in the same say with a daily blog, its procastinstors dresm
welcome to my first independent blog
so whats the topic, as its my first independent blog, so lets talk abt first things, thats why i named it first one with the day, im gonna talk abt some type of first things & their experiences, and this blog is intend to be longer, but not that long as it looks especially ur a doom scrolller, so tune in
first off all, this isnt my first independent blog technically, but theoritically, what that means i have another blog before this named thirty three, but that one is just a mix of independent & #the121 series blog, that one was the only blog to have this functionally till now, so that can be considered as the first independent blog
but there is another blog before that have another unique feature, that is my socials, page where i have just added my social media accounts so i can link it to every blog without telling my socials everytime, and hence i can change that blog when ever i feel like without changing my socials on everypage one by one, its a smart idea r8, i know cs im smart
so that one is theoritically not a blog as i consider that as my social linking page instead of blog, but techinically & by defination that is also a blog, & that would be the most linked blog till now with 36 blog linked till now, so it can be also considered as first independent blog which i dont accept
& there is one more player, the first blog i've written was intend to be a the first blog of #the121, but then i got procastinated abd skipped for many days so i have to reset my blog series after that, so that one is not considered as part of #the121 techincally, but theoritically cs i still consider that as part of #the121 cs it made the series possible to exist
so tell what do u think should become the first blog that is independent, for me its this one, cs i theoritically writing it as one, while i consider "thirty three" a different kind of blog, so it might be one first diffrent blog, while i consider the first blog as the starter of #the121 and a part of #the121, while i consider my social as a page for social media linking, not a blog, but u have rights to share ur thoughts, connect me on my socials
so what now, as the first independent blog i'll talk abt some first experiences of life, but first, the target would be to finish in 2222+ words & in 22 paras or lines, before 12, i wanna complete it today so hard, so lets see how much my temptation can bring me to, or if it just worthless or something
first of all the feeling of publishing my first blog, it was actually very difficult for me, i found about listed way before that, i was exploring privacy focused tools as i came to standard notes, and while exploring i found listed, i was like its another bloging platform, but when i entered the official site got challenged to write straight for 100 day in a series like #the121 which i found very easy but hard to do, since i haven't written any blog or stuffs like before, then i got a feeling that maybe this is it, a chance to improve my life expressing my thoughts in front of public, and since only few ppls in there, i might not have to worry before writting something controversial, so i started writing, i found myself to hard to do it since i like less & less interactions with less ppls, so it was very difficult, but i eventually get brave & completed my first blog to break my fears
it wasnt that good but not bad also at first time, i used to verify it 11 times before publishing & ten 11 more before becoming sure to do it, and done something unique, from day one showed everyone my love for eleven, so i started #121days instead of #100days & renamed it as #the121 the expresses my preference with standard notes challenge, and i just written some shit on there u can check out it on my listed.to/@kyx page always in the begining, the only thing i was afraid of is public opinion, but i can t sacrifice my independent for others comments,
so i said, fuck it, letz release it & released my special blog & my first blog in the #121days series, that give birth to #the121, and now its a great success for me, im now getting enough chance to express my feelings on paper which helping me to empty my mind full of thoughts thats very good for my minds health and i can see the difference, & since im able write my thoughts on public, im getting better at writing blogs, & getting better at explaining & also most importantly learning ways to interact with ppls in very easy level, thats good for both learning & creating creative things our of nowhere, that is what called refreshing mind since it expresses daily thoughts lefting with zero worried mind, so that experience was good, and now im just continuing writting daily
okay but as i told this blog is not a first blog written with 1 more blogs of today, todays blog is written with 2 more blogs written today, one unfinished from yesterday, but i guess i have to it once again, as im gonna start to write the beging of tmrws blog, just the snippets and leave it for the tmrw, this helps me to actually finish the blog at time & i think tmrws blog also gonna be a short blog as it gonna contain only 700 to 1100 of words, like a daily blog should have, short & keypoints highlighted, well but the thing i was saying its not the first blog to be written with another blog, but theoritucally it is, cs technically i have written more than 5 blogs in one day, of course they wasnt that big,
the only reason i written them was to complete the maintainence of my streak since my procastination done me dirty, and i just missed them so steping behind isnt s option to make sense of track, ugh i feel so sleepy, i think i should consider writting it tmrw since im feeling so trippy, and anything written in this phrase would not be good at all, so lets see how long i can get, i'll remember to say it when i slept, but lets just write till i fall in the world full of imagination, lets see the rest, i think its the ending like that
[notice: this para got messed up for some reason, avoid it and start from next one, but read it if u wanna know why & how sometimes in life we just get messed up] well guyz i didnt sleep instead played games, idk why but i feel awake not sleeping while playing games but very sleepy while writing blog, with that being said, im gonna complete my blog before 12, and also make it 2222+, i guess lets see what happens, i think its possible, but with so much misspelling of words its seems totally imposssible, im just typing wrong letters in every word now, eyes so drippy, idk how im gonna made this at last, okay lets try it first let me give u a example of how my writting now when i have only 20 miniutes in hand, see tgod linr is eriryesn wuthuloy cotrrectinnf my soerlinng likr im erintinf wronng in evert wrokd g yhkr have tjn fjx it every time, how can i do it like thsy [that], thats not fait [faur [fau [fair]]] man, see im fonig [doing] wrong in every word, i can write two blog in that time, hoe [how] can i do it kike [like] that, okay lets do it anyways, so the first timr [time, ugh its so annoying mow [now], okay i'll write it tmrw, seeya, klet [let] it take a rest]
okay im back again with a cold mind and im gonna complete this blog now first lets add a ivalid title to previous para as nobody should read that, its completely mess but if anyone want, still can read it, so not removing it, well where was i but before that, wow its happening again, no problem this time i'll not let it go, sometimes or many times in life we experience many things for first times, and the experience of first times are always remembered forever, its takes a good amount of space in our mind reminding us of where we begin with at on all those hard moments on life, its really reminds us that we can go to any limits when we remember of those first memories, like remember the first time u started walking, maybe not, cs that was too little to even store data on brain, but u may have seen in all this years that when children walks for the first time without the support of parents or anything else, parents just got blust off with happieness, well after that did they ever got happy when u walked, i dont think so, why is that cs even a easy task becomes hard if u never tried it, but when u succeed everyone gets feel of succeed, u parents got that feel that our son is now walking of his own, he dont need support from world, & he'll give support to them when they become old, that is the joy of getting succeed for the first time
u may have won many awards in school for good marks or sports, and may getting them untill today, but was all of this hits as hard as it used to hit when u win a award first time, that joy wasnt just joy of getting the award when u won it first time, that joy was the joy of confidence, a confidence u achieved that day, a confidence that u feeled that day, a confidence that gives u power to do anything u want without considering the limitations
and thats why that joy was different even if u get a very small awards, and after that when u go by running to ur mother or father to say that u won a award, do u remember their face expression, the joy they got that day was the joy of succeed, the joy was for raising u as a successful child & getting that confidence that u done one acheivement, now u can do more elevens like this, the joy was for passing & breaking the limitation of ur life, & the of being able to shift from "i cant" to "i can", and its basically impossible to achieve that level of joy in whole life and 2025
why did i write 2025 over there, silly it was the 2025th word of todays blog, dont believe me, check on ur own, so im back after another time period, i guess this is the most trial & failed blog ever written till now, more than 6 times i have started & finished this blog, & it happens, and even though i missed my target again but as i say targets meant to be missed, sounds random right, cs it is, but the thing i wanted to say is completely different, their is deep meaning behind it & thats might be tmrws topic, maybe in the independent one cs i dont wanna make my daily blog too much long from now, so its almost time to finish it, lets get straight into it
so what i was talking abt the first experiences of life, nothing can be like them, there precious, daring, hard but get bypassed and leave us with the temptation of getting succeed, which gives us a better life, there is more thing to talk abt like some interesting ones like first salary, first job, first love, first step for our dream job, but they deserve their own blog, and this blog is already very big, so thats for some other day, untill then u can connect me anytime on my socials for any asistence, guidence, to take from me or to give me some, or just doing normal coversations, im open for yall
have a better life...