DAY41: IDK WHY

so wellcome to my another blog of #the121, and today yet another blog without any specific topic or anything very specific, but there is still a topic which may u consider as a topic but seems not like a topic to me at all, by the way im not gonna limit my brain today cs i dont think thats a good idea at all, well maybe im gonna talk abt one or more topics today, but who knows, i will let u know what i did or wrote in this blog in this box [], and if i keep & published it empty then understand not so specific topics were bloged at all, anyways, i'll let u know

one thing that i mentioned earlier that im not gonna limit my brain today, what actually that meant is i was limiting my thoughts, which wasnt supposed to happen, as per my knowledge when i started writing daily blogs, my goals were to fully empty my mind without thinking of what ppl gonna thought

and then when i begin i was doing well for few days untill some days passed, after that i started to write abt some popular topics, btw before that i was writting abt some privacy focused stuffs, which i ran a different sub-series into this series, that was called discovering privacy, where written some abt how i discovered privacy & bit of why privacy is important

and after that series i was writting abt various popular topics, which was not the issue, the issue was i was limiting my thoughts & writting, i was doing that by writting abt only some specific sites that ppls would love to read, but it wasnt a good plan at all

then i started to write while keeping the length very long, like i was writting a lot of trash just to make the blog bigger, some might say its called pushing the limit but it wasnt, instead it was just limiting my thoughts while writting a lot but not very necessary things

and its not good, btw the reason im doing that was to increase my word count, i thought listed.to not have to much blogs in it, so i thought to be the top, but when i recently checked the word count of many other blogers, i just got shocked by seeimg the numbers

which are easy to break btw, not so hard, but i need a lot more time than my expectation, so i didnt gave up but gave up on the idea or the way im doing it, by writting more words than necessary, makint a unnecessary push to my brain that didnt bring any change or profit to my brain

and this was never supposed to happen, and also addition to that i wasnt giving enough time, u know, im a big procastinator, and i missed a lot of day in this process, im at day 41 now, but if i go by defination, im not actually writing blogs for so much continuing days at all

all i thought was to keep it up, which is the goal, but i was keeping it down by limiting my brain, giving less time to think & more words to produce, whicg lead me to write a lot of innessary words on important blogs yet still never let me finish, let me express my brains full potential

so all i did was wrong, which isnt planned at all, its my confesion to that, and another confetion i have to made, i breaked my record or promise on jun15, the promise that i made few days before that, and not willing to write on here, u can check my previous blogs for clues what promise im talking abt, and i know many of u will not do it, thats why im saying it, my main goal is to not make self promotion but to hide my shame, yeah im ashamed now, connect on my socials, bye [ops, i forgot to mention, the only successfull & useful blog that is also i've ever written ans is the first one, thirty three, check it on my page, and if ur right on time u may can see my current crush]

have a better life...