little seeds

I'm becoming a mother. Until now, I've been a friend, a daughter, a sister, a wife, an individual contributor, a manager, a leader – but this new role feels like the biggest challenge of all. This is my attempt at making sense of it all. At finding balance and generally venting and marvelling at all the little and big things that I'll stumble upon. My little seeds of thought, as a part of the #100 day challenge.

When one becomes two

October 17, 2021•165 words

I've been carrying Baby for almost 9 months now, but he still doesn't feel 'real' to me. The morning sickness was real. The anxiety around whether he'd be healthy and whole was real. The check-ups were real; the sound of his heartbeats, seeing him wriggle about on the ultrasound – all real. The kicks and punches (especially towards my bladder and other internal organs) are definitely real. But Him, as a being, a human, a person – not real. Not yet. Right now He's still just an extens...

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Will I be pregnant forever?

October 17, 2021•317 words

In 'Expecting Better', the author, Emily Oster, points out that there will come a time during the pregnancy when I'll wonder if (read: be convinced that) I'll stay pregnant forever. That's me, right now. I didn't realise I'd reach this stage before Baby's due date, but here I am, 5 days from the due date, and I feel like I've been ready for weeks. And the weeks I have left feel like months. So what am I ready for? No longer having a constant feeling of 'I kind of need to pee' and then e...

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