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I didn't get the job. It's been a while since I've been this sad. I'm a perfectionist in the way that I expect myself to be perfect. I set impossible standards for myself and nothing I ever do is enough. So when I put my everything into a job application and I don't get it I hate myself. I hate myself for being the shittiest designer on this planet, for never being good enough at anything I do and for even trying to do something when I knew I wouldn't get it because I'm literal shit. Right now ...

I'm waiting to hear back from a job I applied to recently. I've been wanting to switch workplaces for a while now. Well longer than a while really. From the beginning, at my current workplace, I always felt like I didn't fit in. I even remember saying that I won't take a job there after my internship even if they offer it to me because I felt like an outsider. Yet here we are two years and one promotion later, still churning away at the same place. I can't be too irritated with myself for this, ...

Today I found myself wishing I had somewhere to pour out all my thoughts. Pen and paper just wasn't doing it anymore and for some reason I feel the need to express myself on the internet for everyone or no one to see. I'm quite convinced this has something to do with my millennial genes. I stumbled upon Listed and found the idea of complete anonymity intriguing. The more I browsed I came across multiple blogs doing the "100 Day writing challenge", even more intrigued I decided to do it myself. ...