What assumptions am I making at this moment?

I'm going to try representing the voice in my head the best I can.

Temporary name: Max

• I'm taking on too much, failure is inevitable
• This is just another period of time that I'll look back on as naive.
• I'm going to let everyone down
• I'm going to let myself down
• I don't have control.
• I'm too far in the hole to ever get out
• There's no way I'll ever be able to do anything

How can I respond to those narratives?

I'm going to embody The Coach, the high-energy high-drive optimistic and focused version of my dialogue. Short and sweet.

The Coach needs a better name in due time. I THINK THE COACH TALKS IN ALL-CAPS AND SWEARS A FUCKTON. BECAUSE THE COACH IS LOUDER THAN THE OTHER GUY. AND HE CAN'T BE FUCKED TO REMEMBER THE OTHER GUY'S NAME.

• OF FUCKING COURSE YOU'RE TAKING ON A LOT, YOU'RE FUCKING STARVING FOR LIFE!

• HELL YES YOU'RE GOING TO FAIL!!! IT'S LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE NOT TO!!! YOU GET ON THE BIKE, YOU'RE GOING TO WIPE OUT. YOU FALL OFF THE BIKE, YOU GET SCRAPED UP. YOU GET SCRAPED UP, YOU GET BACK UP AND KEEP RIDING, AND BRAG ABOUT HOW FUCKING COOL YOU ARE FOR GETTING BACK UP! YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO BE WIPEOUT-FREE UNLESS YOU DON'T RIDE, BUT WHY THE FUCK WOULD A COUPLE OF OOPSIE-DASIES KEEP YOU FROM DOING WHAT YOU LOVE?

• ALSO FUCK SITTING THERE FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF, THAT'S NOT SELF-CARE THAT'S JUST MAKING IT NICE AND QUIET FOR THE OTHER GUY TO PIPE UP.

• YOU HAVE AMAZING PEOPLE WHO LOVE AND CARE ABOUT YOU! THE ONLY WAY YOU LET THEM DOWN IS IF YOU STOP CARING ABOUT YOURSELF AND CARING ABOUT THEM! -YOU- HAVE TOO MUCH LOVE FOR -THEM- TO EVER LET THAT HAPPEN!

• THE ONLY ONE WHO ACTUALLY BELIEVES THAT IS THE OTHER GUY, BUT SERIOUSY FUCK HIM, THERE'S NOTHING THAT WILL MAKE HIM HAPPY SO LET HIM WALLOW IN HIS MISERY WHILE YOU ENJOY THE SHIT OUT OF LIVING.

• FUCK NO YOU DON'T HAVE CONTROL, BUT YOU HAVE AGENCY! YOU DECIDE HOW YOU WANT TO REACT!

• THE OTHER GUY MUST HAVE STUCK HIS HEAD IN THE SHITTY KITTY LITTER BOX AGAIN, BECAUSE I DON'T SEE ANY FUCKING HOLE ANYWHERE! YOU'RE SO FUCKING VALUED BY SO MANY PEOPLE, I ONLY SEE SOMEONE WHO HAS MADE MISTAKES LIKE EVERY FUCKING PERSON ON THE FACE OF THE PLANET HAS

• WHAT FUCKING LA-LA LAND DOES THE OTHER GUY LIVE IN? APPARENTLY HE'S MISSED THE PART WHERE YOU TEACH YOURSELF SHIT JUST BECAUSE, OR THE PART WHERE YOU GOT LIKE 50 PEOPLE TO START RIDING THEIR BIKES BECAUSE YOU WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY, OR THE PART WHERE YOU DECIDED TO HELP PEOPLE AT THE START OF A FUCKING SCARY ASS PANDEMIC, OR THE PART WHERE YOU DECIDED TO MAKE YOUR LIFE DIFFERENT AND KEPT TRYING TIME AFTER TIME AFTER TIME BECAUSE YOU'RE FUCKING RESILLIANT!!!

A WORD FROM COACH

I'M FUCKING PROUD AS SHIT THAT YOU'RE HERE. NOW CLOSE THE FUCKING MACHINE, LAY DOWN, AND GO TO BED!

OH, AND IF THE OTHER GUY START TRYING TO MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE SHIT FOR STAYING UP PAST YOUR BEDTIME LAUGH AT THAT GOON.