No. 15 - Self check
June 17, 2025•293 words
heavily unfinished
I wish I knew myself better but I do know how to tell whether I am burnt out or not. Or just how to check in with my mental stability in general I guess?
One thing is probably related to music. As an avid music enjoyer. I am chronically on Spotify or honestly any music streaming service, having Spotify premium as the best financial choice I have ever made my whole life. A warning sign from my brain is probably when music starts sounding bland. Every music sounds different for me, and every message seems to come close to me. I like getting addicted to a certain line first then eventually spreading out to analyze and understand every bit of the song later on, but when I find myself finding music I really like not too relatable, I sense something being slightly off. I used to think I was kind of cringe for feeling so relatable to the lyrics when these songs are probably written to bait people for more streaming, but hey, at least I can sense myself with some emotion.
Another thing is probably when I find myself trying to distance myself from my friends. I usually never get tired of talking with my friends (which bothers me a lot but I always finish my work after on time so it's fine... probably) or put my friends on the top of my priority (refer to blog No.2)
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15/100
So I wrote this back on 11/15/2024 and never posted it because I thought it didn't fully contain every methods of self checks at the moment but at this moment (6/17/2025) I honestly cannot think of anymore ways to check in with myself so I'm just going to post it........