heavily unfinished I wish I knew myself better but I do know how to tell whether I am burnt out or not. Or just how to check in with my mental stability in general I guess? One thing is probably related to music. As an avid music enjoyer. I am chronically on Spotify or honestly any music streaming service, having Spotify premium as the best financial choice I have ever made my whole life. A warning sign from my brain is probably when music starts sounding bland. Every music sounds different fo...

I feel like since January to February ish my brain has just not been functioning like I cannot think like how I used to be able to for some reason hello bring me back to when I could whip out a whole blog post in 30 minutes I can barely think for 30 minutes straight recently ahhhhh ok that was a greatly exaggerated lie but anyways This MIGHT be because I've only been going out for activities like rock climbing and physical stuff mostly rather than studying and actively using my brain like befo...

​Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5YR199TRrcmxY39l43ovI1?si=2d5db96efa094bf1 Lyrics/Translations: I wanna run, 빛 파란 bit paran Into your 네 세상으로 Ni saesangeuro blue lighted world Whoa, Touch the clouds 별이 빛나는 Byulyi bitnaneun Come to the shimmering stars of 밤의 색으로 와 줘 Bameu saekeuro wa jweo the colors of night Go, 예뻐 Yeppeo Pretty 우리잖아 Woorijanah It's us 모든 건 단순해 Modeun gun dansoonhae Everything is simple 난 네가 필요해 Nan niga pilyohae I need you 혼자인 공간에 Honjayin gongganae In th...

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7cpV3btz9ZXGL7qEN891vM?si=d3448c904dce4546 Lyrics/Translations: Yeah woah woah woah Yeah 오늘도 난 너 없이 지냈는걸 Yeah Oh neul do nan neo oebshi jinetneungul Yeah I spent another day without you Yeah 조금은 변한 걸까? 다른 내 모습이 보여 Oh no Jogeumeun byunhan gulgga? Dareun nae moseupyi boyeo Oh no Have I change a little? I see a different me Oh no 하루 종일 고민해 What I need Haru jongil gominhae What I need I think about all day What I need 너도 같은 맘인지 How you feel Neodo gateun ...

Keep in mind that I didn't proofread it or anything its just raw writing... this is cringe don't read nor talk to me about it Question: How is unconditional love real? My answer: In the short story Paper Menagerie written by Ken Liu, Jack and his mother consistently experience a one-way love. Ever since Jack gets bullied at school for many unjustifiable reasons, he slowly drifts away from his Chinese identity – including his own mother. Regardless, his mother constantly attempts to bond...

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4bjNOhOMvqFPflwHIaS7Fw?si=6d78b005c718438e Lyrics/Translations: 우린 아직 흑백영화처럼 사랑하고 We still love like a black-and-white film 언제라도 쉽고 빠르게 표현하고 Express ourselves easy and fast whenever 맘에 없는 말은 절대 고민하지 않고 Not hesitate of words we don't mean 뭔가 아쉬울 땐, 밤 지새우고 Pull an all nighter when we feel something's missing 남들이 아니라는 것도 상관없지 It doesn't matter that we're not like the others 우린 같은 템포, 다른 노래인 거야 We're the same tempo, different songs 아직 더 서투르고 솔직해야 하지만 Still ...

Version 1: no real meaning tbh, I honestly don't even know why this would be a good essay for my personal statement Sunday, August 4th, 2024, 7:49 pm. The date and time are engraved forever. My avoidant nature of recalling hard memories, brushing aside the parts of myself I didn’t like as if they’d vanish with time, have always been prevalent. But something about that Sunday—the storm outside, my own storm inside—made me question this instinct to forcibly forget. I was in Room 1305 of Warr...

As you all know, I'm currently a senior going through college applications. I'm writing a post because I just faced the first ever struggle in writing a longer essay. I find the greatest struggle throughout this entire (such draining) process to be writing personal statement. How do people just find topics to write about?? I actually have about 10+ different topics that I started writing but just couldn't wrap up because I had no idea where the story would go and how it would convey my life st...

You wake up to the soft, cool morning air drifting in through an open window of your cozy Icelandic cottage. Sunlight spills in from the horizon, though "morning" in this land could mean anything—depending on the season, it might be early dawn or the middle of a polar day. As you pull yourself out of bed, you stretch your now-jacked muscles, feeling a sense of satisfaction from finally nailing that fitness goal. A glance at the mirror, and you’re reminded of all the hours spent learning how to b...

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0YkTM9b4mvcatJYyMTpKuv?si=a4864c03e3604444 Lyrics/Translations: 네 생각이 피어올라 Thoughts of you bloom 화려한 장미꽃같이 Like a gorgeous rose 서로 아플지도 몰라 Might hurt both of us 하지만 사랑해 볼까 해 But I'm thinking of loving you 나만의 생각은 아니길 I hope it's not just my thoughts 알잖아 이젠 마지막이니 You know it's the last time 결국엔 불타 없어질까 저 담배 연기처럼 Will it eventually burn away like those cigarette smoke? Smoke, smoke, smoke Yeah, we smoking them roses Smoke, smoke, smoke Yeah, we smoking t...

We had a 15 minute long free write in AP Lit today on one of the "Big Questions" of our choice from those that my class wrote in about 10 minutes (there were about 110 questions...). I thought it was a good brain dump for the day so I will be posting. Keep in mind that I didn't proofread it or anything its just raw writing... Question: Why do we yearn for love? My answer: Humans unavoidably interact with other human beings throughout their lives, and we tend to develop and express our f...

In the past two days (I started writing this a few days ago, so this is in perspective of beginning of this week), more people have been learning that I recently started writing a blog. I didn't intend to keep it private, but I also didn't mean to go around advertising my blog and telling everyone that I write a blog. However I did want more people to read it so I kept dropping "oh yeah that's why I started writing a blog," in the middle of college essay conversations (college application panic ...

"Guys senior year second semester, we're going to go out every weekend and be the most locked out people to ever exist" - many people in my friend group for a long long time So, I will be making a list of things I want to do once college applications season is over! I hope to come back and check off some good amount of things on this list and be productive (in being locking out). Most - if not all - will involve friends so I'll just omit the "with my friend group" part (unless specified). Roc...

I have been through the paper SAT, digital SAT, ACT, and of course our favorite, AP exams. Paper SAT Paper SAT was alright. It's been quite a while, but I do remember it being insanely long to the extent that I couldn't focus around the time I got to the last two articles because I was so tired. This is why I chose to study for the ACT. ACT ACT, is much more fast paced, and barely gave me anytime to think - especially on the reading section. One time I tried the writing portion as well, but af...

Gaslight. Gatekeep. Girlboss. I call these the modern day 3Gs. While the ancient times (they're not THAT ancient but they're ancient compared to me, therefore they're ancient) Europeans explored around the world looking for 3Gs (gold, glory, and God), I say people nowadays master the art of the modern day 3Gs for their own good. Let's talk about the first G, gaslight today. Many of you guys probably already know, but I used to gaslight myself that I like math in 9th grade. I was just in hurry ...

I try not to be too conscious of what others might think, but it is definitely challenging for me. Though some may not believe given how clueless and tired I look most of the time (...), I'd say I am pretty good at reading the room; most of the time, I know what's going on in my surrounding, I just never have enough energy or interest in it to call it out. My intuitions are usually right, to the extent where it scares me sometimes. Sometimes I would ask the person later in public to establish ...

Life goals: Ph.D. in something (math? perchance?) Get a hugeee garlic farm Permanently move to Iceland and live off of my garlic farm income Be forgotten by miscellaneous people (please) Bucket List: Bungee jump Skydive See the northern lights Ice skate on a frozen lake Busk in the streets with friends Make songs and post them Go camping at the dark skies and see the Milky Way with friends Ski trip with friends! Go on infamously scary rides Road trip with friends Impulsive trip to somewhe...

When I am asked which year of high school I like the most so far, I always say "My junior year was the best year," and also say, quite ironically, "My junior year was the hardest year." Why do I say two such conflicting things? Junior year, by far, gave me the most amount of work all my life. And this is solely because I simply put too much on my plate, with the "fuck it, we ball," mentality. A friend of mine always says that school is just a huge casino where you gamble whether you can stay lo...

My mom often tells me that I prioritize my friends over my anything: including academics, goals, or sometimes even family. But every time this topic is brought up, I can't even argue back saying, "No, I have my own priorities and friends are definitely not on the top of the list, of course I would put myself on the top priority." Is this because it is true that I value my friends so much that I could do anything for them? There a popular phrase that parents frequently say: "Would you jump off t...

I was never good at expressing my thoughts. Whenever I feel the need to say my feelings and thoughts out loud, the thought of “would anyone care, what if everyone ignores me” kicks in. I hate being ignored. That is so rude. That's where I developed infinite respect towards people who are able to express their thoughts out loud to the intended public. People often say I am not expressive but rather dry and tired. This is a false statement. I just don’t know what to say to show empathy or show t...