Who are you?

There are some days in which I wonder "do I really know you? Did I ever get to know you? Who are you?"

I have no answer.
I thought I knew you well, more than anyone. Now it all seems and illusion. A shady sad illusion.

Then more questions arise "What was real? What was just my hope and my stubbornness?"

I want to admit defeat and I sadly accept the illusion. But then, a voice within me screams loudly "I know you!!". A pause comes. I breath in and out. Some weird serenity arrives.

I know you, probably better than you know yourself. I have been by your side many years; supporting and helping you. Seeing you shine and grow. Years of conflict, pain, happiness, hope and struggle. So much being shared. So many words outspoken and so few from your side.

Always afraid of opening up, struggling with confronting conversations; the ones that made us suffer and grow, and get so close to each other.

I look behind and it is painful. Sad. Still, my heart warms up with a bit of love, like the flame of a tea light candle.

Now we parted ways. Forever? It is for the best, I know.

But you should know, I really know you and I can see the whole of you. The wonderful person you are and could be if you believe in yourself and put your heart on the line. I know it isn't easy, but I always had faith on you.

Goodbye my friend.