Always 4:00 - 8/3/22
March 8, 2022•131 words
For some reason, no matter what time I sleep I seem to always wake up at 04:00. I wake, and I feel your absence. No matter where I am, no matter who I'm with. It's a sharp feeling of loss and sadness, and that never really seems to go until I distract myself by getting up.
I profoundly miss you. No matter where you are, I love you. Unconditionally, profoundly, and undyingly. I don't know how to make that stop, and I don't know if it ever will.
I know I can't talk to you without hurting you and making you dislike me more, and I've given my word that I won't. I'm trying to work out how to escape this without death, but I am not sure I know how.