Making the future not the past

What can I do? Arm numb leg hurts am I getting older or just confused because I‘m young? If I think about it everything has been done but simultaneously nothing is familiar and seems scary one thing seems repetitive and boring another seems so new and so fun. Maybe it is middle age I’m trapped neither fresh nor expired I’ve been working all my life so far from my first day and just as far from being retired. Bless the present how terrible to go back what once was an eerie white light will also ...