Old ways or new ways?

What can I do?
Arm numb
leg hurts
am I getting older
or just confused because I‘m young?
If I think about it
everything has been done
but simultaneously
nothing is familiar
and seems scary
one thing seems repetitive and boring
another seems so new and so fun.
Maybe it is middle age
I’m trapped
neither fresh nor expired
I’ve been working all my life
so far from my first day
and just as far from being retired.
Bless the present
how terrible to go back
what once was an eerie white light
will also someday turn black.
Give me a coffee
something for better health
at least I'm not quite poor
even if I don't quite have wealth.

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