17. jun. 2026

Life happened.

I got happy for a while. Turns out that talking to people you like being around really helps.. who would've thought?
I'm back at the place that initially took my spirit and joy, but i seen an end this time!
I believe a lot in karma; what you do, you get back. That sort of thing. I'm not particularly religious and I don't worship anyone. But i believe that everything is a balance, and in order for good things to happen, you have to keep it even.
I think that all the energy I've put into keeping it even is finally paying off. What i thought was gonna be 3 months of fighting for my life again has turned into 3 weeks of just baring with it. Another thing I've been fighting for to happen has finally been set in motion, and it looks like it's happening a lot sooner than i was expecting. All very good things. I can finally start trying to figure out what I wanna do with this life.

Anyways I want to share my "wisdom" on karma. As I've said everything is a balance. I believe that the universe is a conscious, that looks at our balance and decides if it can let the good things happen. I think that everything is planned out, but you can go against it, but the universe is still gonna try to push you the right way which in turn might involve life being shit, but that's ok because it knows what you really want in the end, you just have to listen.
That gut feeling we sometimes get, I think that's the universe nudging us. My gut has never been wrong. It sounds crazy, but it never has. I collect bones and specific types of rocks that i most commonly find at the beach by my house. Sometimes I will have thought about wanting to find a specific kind of bone (like a specific sizes; chunks of bone or little bird bones) And i will get a gut feeling one day telling me I should go to the beach and 9/10 times I will find what I've been wanting to find.
One time I got almost freaked out by it; I was walking home from school, sometimes I go by the beach on the way back just to say hello to the sea. On this day however i hadn't originally planed to go by the beach, but I felt this almost pulling feeling in my gut and i just knew i had to go to the beach. (Most the time I find bones in the same spots at the beach since currents usually carry them to the same places) As soon as I got down to the waters edge I saw a huge piece of bone. Never found a bone on this part of the beach. It was in the water however and was too far out for me to reach with my hand. I was gonna go turn to find a stick i could use to fish it out, but as soon as I turn to my left there is a perfectly sized stick right by my foot. with the stick i fish the bone piece out of the water with ease.
I seriously don't think that was just good timing.
Sometimes when I'm dreading going for a walk, even though I know I need it, I will get that weird nudging. And again 9/10 I will find a cool rock or bone almost as a "reward" from the universe for going on a walk I didn't wanna go on.
Nothing just happens. Everything has a purpose.

The universe is kind if you just stop and listen.

• Sincerely from the deepest pits of the Void :)