Lamenting in Separation

A small and insignificant speck of dust.

Fallen Rascal Records

Fallen Rascal: Lamenting in Separation (2006-2008). A nitya-baddha, eternally conditioned spirit soul. I made a bunch of recordings back then, unheard and unreleased. Some of these may be released here later, you have been warned.

We Must Give Up Undesireable Association

Cow & Deer

One day the Sun woke up

This is a little story(board) I wrote many years ago.

One day the Sun woke up, every human was gone.
Sun looked first in east, then in west,
but nowhere they could be found.
Perhaps they'll be back tomorrow,
thought Sun, as he went home to his nest.

The following morning Sun got up a little earlier than before.
His rays were searching both high and low,
he even melted some snow.
While thinking of how they could all disappear,
Sun came across a cow and a deer.

Hi there, said Sun, have you seen anyone?
No, said Cow, but here is such fun!
No one is taking my calves and my milk,
then only later to have me killed.

What about you, Deer, have you seen someone?
No, said Deer, and why should I care?
They'd just kill me off for sports and my hair.
Do you consider that to be fair?

Then Deer and Cow both said aloud:
Please do not bother, our sunny brother.
Rather come play, we can do it all day!

I've got no time to play, said Sun and went away.
He was still wondering why the humans had left.
Or maybe it all was alien theft?

To be continued...

Where To Go And Whom To Follow

Where to go and whom to follow
I can't find the way on my own

I'm scared of doing the right thing
Just in case it ain't so

Dear Lord, please tell me what to do

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Please take away my lust

Please take away my lust, my anger and my greed
My envy and my pride, my false identity
Then maybe I could see who I really am
A servant of Your servant's lotus feet

But a dim reflection

This world is but a dim reflection
Of what lies beyond

I wish I knew direction
But I'm lost here all alone

Nowhere to go, no place to hide
I wish I was by Your side

Who am I, where do I come from
What's the purpose of my life

Who am I, where do I come from
Where will I go when I die

Thinking things over

Thinking things over
Now that I'm sober
I never even meant to go away

I couldn't help it
Into the hell-pit
Without You it is all the same

Now I realise my mistake
This world is vacant
For want of You

I'm trying to chant
But clearly I can't
My mind's telling me what to do

Maya's distractions
And sinful reactions
Please help me surrender to You

15 years ago: Nrsimha prayers

Prayers to Nrsimhadev

namas te narasimhaya
hiranyakashipor vaksaha

I offer my obeisances to Lord Narasimha, who gives joy to Prahlada Maharaja and whose nails are like chisels on the stonelike chest of the demon Hiranyakasipu.

ito nrisimhah parato nrisimho
yato yato yami tato nrisimhah
bahir nrisimho hrdaye nrisimho
nrisimham adim sharanam prapadye

Lord Nrsimha is here and also there. Wherever I go Lord Nrsimha is there. He is within the heart and is outside as well. I surrender to Lord Nrsimha, the origin of all things and the supreme refuge.

tava kara-kamala vare
nakham adbhuta-shringam
dalita-hiranyakashipu-tanu bhrigam
keshava dhrita-narahari-rupa
jaya jagadisha hare

O Kesava! O Lord of the universe! O Lord Hari, who have assumed the form of half-man, half-lion! All glories to you! Just as one can easily crush a wasp between one's fingernails, so in the same way the body of the wasplike demon Hiranyakasipu has been ripped apart by the wonderful pointed nails on your beautiful lotus hands.

20 years ago: Thou Shalt Not

Back in 2001-2002 I was very depressed. A friend of mine had committed suicide, so me and my friends were grieving. I had stopped taking drugs and I stopped drinking as well. Anyhow, this recording is from back then, lamenting my fallen state.


Thou shall not kill
Thou shall not lie
Thou shall not steal
And thou shall not f*** around

From regulation to revolution

No meat, no fish, no eggs, no intoxication
No illicit sex, no gambling or speculation

These are the basic rules for human life
If we would just follow we'd be surprised

How nice to leave
This world behind

No birth, no death, no old age and disease
If we could all just come together, please

And sing these Holy names of the Lord
Which leads me to the refrain come on


Hare Kṛṣṇa, Hare Kṛṣṇa,
Kṛṣṇa Kṛṣṇa, Hare Hare,
Hare Rāma, Hare Rāma,
Rāma Rāma, Hare Hare

Please have mercy

Please have mercy upon my soul
Fallen into this world (a nitya-baddha)

Please have mercy upon us all
Still so far away from home (vaikuntha)

Small and insignificant

I'm small and insignificant just like
A speck of dust floating thru the air

And You're the most magnificent (God)
I don't even know why You should care

Yet I'm calling out to You in despair
Please get me out of here (Your maya)

Just by calling Your name...