i start thinking i should be working

doing something on the computer—then i remember i spend most of the day lying down—that it hurts to type—that everything hurts (all the time) and i see that i should give myself a break—that its ok that im disabled (that its ok that im collecting money)

i managed to type 20 books since i got this disorder (which is a lot of typing) but i doubt i could work as a programmer as the typical keyboard posture hurts me—and those 20 books were done for 2 hours a day (working some months on and some months off) so working regularly all the time would be impossible

i deleted my terminal program today (ditto my programmers editor) i had applied for a long shot tech job (which i didnt get) and i decided to put away my programming project for now—and while i was in there decided to put away my ability to further edit my books (not forever but) for now—just decided to play hooky from correcting further book errors to do this—

(write in a blog again)

and

(keep taking pictures)

everythings on my phone

typing on the phone is not so bad

picture taking is good (ergonomically)

ive been reading again (psychology and science fiction) thats the first time ive read a book since i stopped writing (two years ago)

ive got enough money to live cheaply and take basic care of myself (so ill do that)

no other plans at present