catch up to the present

sometimes (when thinking) im mired back in the past

and when i realize that

i say

its ok if i catch up to the present

sometimes i get caught up in the future and (when i realize that) i say

its ok if i fall back from the future

sometimes i am unable to catch up to the present (or fall back into it)

but when i am able to let go of the future (let go of the past) i feel a wide-eyed release into the present

thats why i say (its ok if i catch up to the present) instead of (catch up to the present—now !!) my mind doesnt like to be forced

but if i tell myself gently (over and over) that its ok if i let go of my memories and fantasies

then

over time

my mind does let go more easily

and im more here / now