Spoiler Alert: This one's sappy and full of self indulgent neurotic emotional laundry being washed in the open.

What seems to have gone wrong with my life?
If I look back to see what sticks out as memorable or a satisfying moment or achievement, it all looks like a lukewarm stale pizza.

Have I really screwed up ? Or is it just that I'm going through a low?
How can I objectively assess my life? Let's forget the past and just take the present and see if a more positive perspective can be framed.

Maybe I can list all the things which I should be greatful for ?
Gratitude journaling works, but that would need probably a thousand years.

How can I move forward from here without feeling stuck and wallow in the quagmire.
Describe things from a different perspective.

If someone asked me the way ahead in life and I have to show them the way, what would I do?
Tell yourself a story about becoming a better person and evolving by pushing forward and doing good for yourself and the world.

Why do I feel bad and screwed up?
I'm unable to connect with most of the people who are supposedly close to me.
What can I do to remove the burden of being so self centred and not have anything useful to say to others.

Is there a point in mylife, when I can stand on a stage and speak about my fears, and somehow magically you will become a better person.
I can't understand why things are appearing so gloomy, maybe it's something I ate.

But what can I do different to come out of this never ending cycle of hopelessness and sadness?
Music, journal. Ask better questions. Eat healthy and move about.

Is there a goal I can tether myself towards?
Should I dull the pain by flooding the senses with the crap from all over the internet or by doomscrolling blogs and substacks.

It feels like I'm running away from the pain within. And I'm not able to understand the cause for the pain or ways of eliminating it.
Should I immerse myself in pain numbing sensory overload or just sit and obser it.
Wait and observe - without really taking sides or making judgements of right or wrong.
A little bit of melancholy didn't hurt anybody.
But listening to uplifting music is a better option rather than wallowing in the mud.
Try more writing. There are some aspects which seem obvious but others not so much.

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