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00:00 I'm going to do something, which is a very strange talking to myself, but it looks like that we are an alcohol and. I think the paper is. Coming up. What resources are not really reliable? You need to verify. Uh, how do I verify? Uh, I haven't read it. Yes, and are there any significant takeaways? 00:27 For doing. Stuff, which is useful. I really don't know, and I really don't care. Okay, this is okay, who seems to have done the crappy stuff. Okay, but uh, is there any way to catching? I ...

00:00 Yeah, good morning, and welcome back. Who am I trying to welcome? Here, I have to welcome myself. So, what I have in mind today? Is? Trying to be a little more honest with myself. And see what? Can be improved. What can be made better? And. Why have I reached this stage at all? 00:29 Was I not conscious that? I'm sinking into a slow mental and physical decline. Was I not aware of the problems which are coming up in my life? Which I seem to be inflicting upon myself. I think I'm aware, b...

00:00 Select this show today, a medical issue. I'm not sure how serious it is, but swallism. Possibly some kind of inflammation, but then another doctor and I don't want to remove. My knowledge and display it. Analyze my situation using Google skills talking Google skills. I should say those are cardi skills. 00:28 I've stopped using the kagi search engine pretty extensively and. I find it's a whole. Uh, but it's like the way Google used to be when it's hotter till it became this crap insertifi...

00:00 The question which bothers me and this is occurring in different areas. Also, is where do I put this material? Should I put it on a particular platform, which is obscure, which nobody won't even dream of. Ah, does it really matter as long as you are putting your stuff out there and have? 00:27 Having eyeballs on it is not the real intention. Putting your stuff out there is the real. Focus, I should say. What is the template or The Narrative Arc which I want to follow? Here is. Want to tak...

00:00 Can I do this more often? Can I publish multiple times? What you need to be careful is that you tend to get. Over on or carried away by. The ease of the technology, and there is no genuine content. So, instead of rambling and talking crap, you should be able to say important stuff, say things which are meaningful, insightful, and have elements. 00:35 If you're not able to provide value. By speaking nonsense. You are wasting, not just your own time, but the time of your readers and audienc...

00:00 There's something which you noticed today is? At the end of empty recording, there is a formal part where you're signing off. Uh, it's almost like over and out. You say, thank you. It's not an email. This is not a formal communication, and you need to be aware that. You are speaking for device, or maybe you're speaking to a larger audience. 00:28 The way to structure your narration is that there needs to be a flow or a design which needs to be perceived or projected before so you can proj...

Ping your other friend and hand over the bottle. By closing the loop on these smaller formalities, the bigger fish is taken care. Vacuum the car seats tomorrow. What a glorious evening and things made such a fantastic difference to the overall outcome. What is the point of writing here, if you can't challenge yourself and seek new narratives. Can I find true meaning and what I'm long for, by writing honestly and without fear. Yes, certainly you can. But what's the final word? ...

00:00 Can I use this session as self therapy? Can I? Ask questions to myself and expect that they would be some interesting insights and answers, which may emerge from the deep dark. Hidden closets. Oh, there are multiple closets. Yes, I forgot to mention those two. But. Can we try and knock on some new doors and see how? 00:36 Uh, the skeletons and darker Secrets. Can come out. Or maybe I can? A torch light into the darker corners and nooks and crannies. Of my soul. Can I do more Soul searchin...

Why am I struggling to craft essays? What if I adopt a strategy of a mad bull and go about the business of writing with reckless abandon? Will it help you write better? How can I do better, than what I'm doing now? Will more writing make it better? How can I hone the craft? Can I be more deliberate with the choice of words and also experiment with narrative, dialog, character? Is it a matter of just starting the car, like put the key in the ignition and the bloody thing is off down the road...

I've been writing, journaling, daily 3-morning paging, 750wording in various platforms, and venting my spleen, gall bladder and what not. What have I got to show for it till now? a VERY BIG ZILCH ! How is it that I've not progressed at all, since all these days and months of writing? Yes, there have been a few fleeting moments of bliss and enlightenment. But those have also been mere flashes in the pan. So what am I doing wrong? Or what should I be doing differently? Should I seek out profess...

You must try your best, in recording what you have experienced at a deep level. It need not make any sense, to you nor others. The ability to capture, record and tag the fleeting moments are probably what life actually is. There may be no angels or orchestral effects in your head, but instead a dull throbbing noise. But that's life, as you see it, now, right here. Be yourself. Don't worry that others may not see any of this this. Or you may also not get the point of any of this. But who the he...

Focus and Driven Will you give the whole step of driving the rage of going back to a deal within the steep rise and fall of emotions. What is the best way to leverage and derive benefits from this way to give myself a better chance of finding new paths to explore and not get stuck with the same patterns of thinking. Is it a necessity to search systematically? What picture can you see, for matching your present condition? Is there a limit to what I'll not cross and find a better way to give ...

Strive for consistency If I have one metric or rule to consider what I need to be doing to improve my writing, is to be consistent. Try hard and harder. You must be able to engage your complete focus and attention when writing. Do it with the full thrust and engagement of your core. Like the frequent admonishing while exercising, engage all of your senses. By being fully engaged in the process, you will observe minor deviations and return back to the flow state. If you are able to deeply engag...

Begin, Middle, End template ideas Outline of the main arguments If I have an idea, can I present it from multiple ideas The main problem is the overall structure. If I have identified a problem, can I use this as a scratch-pad for thinking and explore the solutions in the real-world. What is the best way to teach ourselves basic life-lessons and how can we impart them (atleast a few key ones) to our children? I'm worried about how our son is wasting away. Ofcourse, it's early days, but we ar...

What are your plans for the weekend? Another question, that sucks and makes me feel like I'm wasting my life, doing nonsense which is meaningless and isn't going anywhere. Isn't it obvious that you're just sitting by the road-side and all the world and their uncles are moving on. You need to come up with a new mantra, or a raga, or a way to justify your existence. Is that the problem? That the world is moving and you're feeling stuck to the same place without really understanding what is goin...

blog post of an aimless traveller If you've wondered, how it feels to travel without a plan or a destination. An aimless wandering, but with a constraint of a reality tether, which will tug you back to your desk by Monday Morning. I have found an escape hatch, using which one can slip out of the grind of reality. Go to any place of your liking, for a limited amount of time. For now, the window is a few hours, but can't speculate if it's going to grow our go away. Why should we all do this...

Going on a random walk down an explored rabbit-hole How can I find and fix the chinks in my armour? THe ability to perform at short notice. To be able to say things which sound profound and wise, without actually seeming to be desperate and sweating to curry favours from the hoi-polloi. It is a test of who can stare at the enemy without blinking, for the longest period of time. She is very chaalu, without appearing to be so. (SS), is she a Brahmin, possibly not. She is rather protective of he...

It's day two or possibly three and I'm already wondering, what next? To write about? After honesty, the next theme I want to stay with is to connect within, specifically at three levels, breathe, body and mind. The reason I got bowled over today was the headache. I didn't know what to do next. Maybe you need to learn to accept pain and allow it to settle down and then see it move on, like an un-invited guest who has overstayed by a bit. Why are you performing for someone? Especially when y...

Random Observations and oblique thoughts Growth by pursuing a direction? Start the day by chanting a self-delusionary mantra. Storytime - scifi nostalgia Read Cyberpunk Story by Bruce Bethke. What were you takeaways ? Hacking ideas - need to go above mere shock and be in the realm of creative ingenuity. Deleting flights at a random time, for an entire year is a good decoy, to throw people off. Using services and sending the bill to some obscure legal firm... that sounds like fun Stealing mo...

Spoiler Alert: This one's sappy and full of self indulgent neurotic emotional laundry being washed in the open. What seems to have gone wrong with my life? If I look back to see what sticks out as memorable or a satisfying moment or achievement, it all looks like a lukewarm stale pizza. Have I really screwed up ? Or is it just that I'm going through a low? How can I objectively assess my life? Let's forget the past and just take the present and see if a more positive perspective can be framed...

Action Ahead, Watch out! If I need to change myself, improve, become better, rather than being wooly-headed, let me take this head-on. Just be honest with myself. That's it! Spoiler Alert Simple doesn't make it easy. But here's a tip, take it one step at a time. Always be experimenting. Conduct a thought expriement everyday. Create your own survey and fact-finding missions. Seek the truth and answers for all your queries and maybe you'll find something which clicks. One of the objectives of...

Remember this phase Feelings of sadness, frustration and being trapped by the desires of others. I don't know why I ever got into this situation. Is it just bad timing, the stars, my fate or just GFK. I don't know where I screwed up, but I've started feeling like a loser and I don't see any opportunity to correct the mistakes. My son's vision and his inability to learn, is another self-inflicted failure. What can I do other than rant and possibly pray. Yes, that I've missed and also medit...

Look Within I have one device to navigate the journey. The continuous output of words and different word patterns. As long as the output is continuously happening, we are on the path to making progress. Are there any other views and perspectives to gain a better angle and grip on life. Let's make the update visible and steady to make the ability to climb and make the most of the available runway from here. Do we want to keep up this charade of doing more of the stuff to deliver the right stuf...

29-10-2024 08:57:12.12 What do I actually want to write about? There are ideas, some fragments, which need to be consistently developed. There will be a definite point in time, when you can make the cut, as a professional, or atleast a serious amateur. So you need to take more snapshots. Focus on the depth of focus, framing the picture, colour composition, themes of development. Seriously build capability and ability to build, create and craft interesting ideas. Should I build more ships an...

Feelings, thoughts, emotions, ideas. What should I be doing in life. Be more explicit, involved, engaged blah blah blah. If I ever stop running behind stupid goals, what would I rather be doing instead. When my mind freezes, jams up or slows down, not knowing what to do next, I need to have a list of items of go to activities, which will ease things. Benefits of Instagram - catch trending music, meet wierd oddball characters, poetry, thoughts to ponder, add to this list. If I get time to im...

It was a trivial and casual comment by the missus, but it's hurting and she knows it too. But why are you still carrying the burning hot coals in your heart? Allowing it to burn your insides like acid eating away at your stomachs lining. Instead just pull away from the mental drama. Pull the plug, from the tape playing endlessly on loop. Bring on the dancing girls and some mindless entertainment. Why do I feel trapped and full of despair. Actually, it's reduced, but only a bit. The viscous ...

Stuck In Traffic By Choice I keep wondering why we have become so impatient in traffic. Waiting For Your Turn Can we not take turns and everyone gets to move at a more decent pace without needing to break the line. Outsiders Vs Insiders Why are there so many outsiders(non-localsl, where we live? Will it affect the culture of the place? So many places selling fish, meat etc, wasn't so earlier. Listening to podcasts Is it an addiction or a genuine knowledge feed for your mind? Wondering...

This is not a sermon but a friendly note to myself. There are a few aspects which I need to think about deeply. How do I motivate myself and others. What should I write about. One key takeaway was that the piece by Steph is that one has to have some new idea thrown in. This has to be my unique take perspective opinion commentary. Also the piece would evolve over time. It will take consistent effort and practice. Why nation state actors buying zero days is just an economic phenomenon? T...

How capable will one become, if there is a laid down path for gaining excelling, become masters at a given skill? Can I become better, by comparing myself, over the last every X hours. Think years would be a better metric. The reality inside one's head needs to reflect the newly created one. Overwriting all older versions of beliefs, mindset, language etc. Why am I feeling drowsy? Is it because of the heat or the food I ate easier? Could be both? How do we discard old habits and acquire n...

I've been asked to write. And I've accepted without much ado. Is there a better opportunity for me to preach to myself. What should I write about and what is the tone I need to keep. Contribution to open source. The need to simplify, vs complexity. Don't follow the trend, create your own. What is the new mantra? Do I have words of wisdom to share? Standing on the shoulders of giants If I hadn't had good mentors, I was nowhere in the picture. Find your own sources of truth. If I have lea...