Voice Note 2025-06-12 07:04 AM

00:00

Yeah, good morning, and welcome back. Who am I trying to welcome? Here, I have to welcome myself. So, what I have in mind today? Is? Trying to be a little more honest with myself. And see what? Can be improved. What can be made better? And. Why have I reached this stage at all?

00:29

Was I not conscious that? I'm sinking into a slow mental and physical decline. Was I not aware of the problems which are coming up in my life? Which I seem to be inflicting upon myself. I think I'm aware, but I've not been doing much about it. This is a time to get my act together.

00:57

And set things right? Let's see how we. Improve our sense. So, starting with what's going on? Is have allowed myself rather my brain to tell me things which. Are not? Fully through. And I have allowed the brain to. Get engaged and locked into a few ideas, which. Uh, maybe transitory may be in passing, and it seems to have.

01:41

Got me trapped in a vicious cycle of thinking, which is not. Which is not fully away from reality, but? The sad part of the story is that? Affecting me physically and my health. In ways which I did not. Possible here, which I didn't. Thing would happen and. Now, I am finding myself.

02:16

In this strange situation. Wise range because? For no reason. I'm seeing my body. Traveling, getting troubled and? Getting stuck in a way which was not the normal. So, I need to be careful. I need to change my ways, and I need to. Clean up my act. And my thinking and my actions.

02:54

Good start would be to. Be honest with oneself and. Not just myself, probably tell others also. About the issues, what I'm facing. Uh, we want to be brutally honest, or do you want to be the benefits of being so transparent? Yes, you can be transparent, and you can discuss stuff with.

03:27

On my way you feeling. Have. But at the end of the day. Things are not going to really change. For them. For them, you're just another. Piece in the puzzle. And. It's not going to really. Make any difference to them. Where they were being honest, or you're being. Totally deceitful.

03:58

It's just another. Dick in the Box, another day in that place. Another Joker who's passing? By the side. So, be cautious, but at the same time, you need to. Put this across that. There are problems. And you need to try and take this. A reasonable conclusion, which. Will help you.

04:33

Get out of this truck. I seem to have gotten into a worship cycle. Like, I said earlier. And that's really not what should be? Happening. So? What can I do that is of interest? Speaking to yourself.

04:59

It's like shining. Torch. Within yourself. And. Maybe I find wood often enough? And I see the patterns, which are. Recurring. Would be reasonable to expect that. You can. Make slight changes gradually. Or maybe even suddenly and? Come to a safe stage where? Things can be made different. Can that happen?

05:41

For example, being aware of the tension, what I carry. In my body and in my mind is something which may be beneficial. And. Being mindful walking and meditating. Probably even breathing. Over an extended period of time should gradually pull you out of this. Suspect. And. What about the carrier option?

06:23

Is it just running away? Is it just trying to? Find another. Answer to the wrong question. Am I asking the right question? That is something which you need to. Consider very seriously. And um, yes, the traveler is going to definitely be. A burden and. Would it be worth it?

07:00

Enough for you actually switch? Or would it just be another? I know that, you know, switching? Television channels. Makes sense to jump ship. And. Take a leap of faith. How, how about doing your own thing? That in the long term, I, I believe, that would be. A better strategy.

07:34

I believe that should. Take you in a direction which? Would not just be challenging. What would make you learn and grow? And. Do things which are? Maybe more difficult. But would actually help you. Become a better person, but? What is the plan? There is no plan that seems to be the first problem.

08:07

So? I need to First have at least a germ of an idea. You start with. Without that, it's not going to really help. And. Things must. Try and take a different direction. For. Making these changes. That's a bit strange when somebody is looking at you and you're trying to talk.

08:39

But. That's the way things are. Yeah, I understand. But. Is there a better way to do it? I don't think so, at least not in the. Present circumstances. So, try and complete that course, which in the training. Was? But it gives you a very broad framework where? You may be able to generate more ideas.

09:12

But without some direction. Without some guidance, I don't see myself. Coming up with? Something which can work something which? Appeals as well as is useful. See the problem of this framework is that it's? Could be just a professor's. Way of packaging. Knowledge packaging. I've got an idea. Something. Appears to be.

09:52

And a great strategy. But is it just that it's just packaging? And. May not really be useful in terms of practically. Method of using the strategy to help yourself. Can. Derive something. On your own. Can you really pursue? I'm angry, which is. Not going to be. In the long run running from one employer to another.

10:32

Asking one Joker? To another. And. Begging for? Employment. Ah, regarding finances. That's something which you need to be. Careful. And also trying and. Manage. With what you have? And. Do this in a way which can. Provide you with not just bread in butter, but? Some amount of com. And some amount of.

11:20

Phase of enjoyment and employability. What can you do? What we want to do. What would you like to be doing? Is something which you need to. Deliberate. Discuss and? Then come up with. A plan and come up with the next steps. It can be an impulsive. Youngster and? Catch the next bus and head nowhere.

11:59

That's not what I would be comfortable doing as a long-term. Strategy. What I would rather be doing? Is? Find a way to explore the problems around me. And see what Solutions I can offer. And also. What benefits can? Provided. Society at large. And use this as a level. Or a lever?

12:44

Make yourself. More accountable. Make yourself. Uh, demand more from yourself rather than. Do shoddy jump? Doing something. Okay, I am being honest here that. Offlet. My output has been reducing for whatever reason. You know? Complaining. But. Yes, it's an observation that you haven't been really. Pushing yourself from doing stuff, which matters.

13:26

Are providing value Beyond our very limited. Scope. You should be doing much more. You are capable of much more. So, why don't you? Do stuff, which can bring value. Which can bring. Which can solve problems for others. That's, uh, what I should be thinking about? That's what I should be.

13:58

Maybe doubling about? And. Playing different kind of games and?

14:10

Which one normally does? For this kind of things. That is. The general approach and? Also remember to have fun because! That seems to be. An area. Hasn't really happened. But they seem to be stuck in a Groove. Which? Uh, until I will not call it a grave. But yes, it's a rat which you've fallen into.

14:49

And. It's not a great place to be, nor is it comfortably. Not, is it? Uh, giving you any kind of benefit by staying in this rut. So, try and get out of it. As soon as possible. And let's see what else can be done from here? Thank you.

But I'll need to write some more to make it across the cleanup or backlog from missing yesterday.

Is there any sense in sharing the personality quirks of your deepest ideas with an audience which is never the point. You'll always need to get to a stage where there are bigger objects falling from the sky and dealing with blocks which are real and imaginary. Try and gather yourself and make this into a setup which is in your favour. What skills do you bring to the table?

How can you make a difference? Is there any bigger purpose to the entire story? What is the problem with your mind?

An I allowing it too much freedom to do stuff without a long term strategy and purpose. Will you be able to strike a balance?