Voice Note-2025-10-09 06:44 PM

00:00
What can I talk about? What can I say to myself and to others? Do I have a story to narrate? Or. Stare at the wall, which is blank, and I'm looking for patterns or maybe even spots to see if I can make sense of the madness inside my head and out in the world.

00:24
What do I want, even to say, what do I want to think about? What do I want to write? All these are questions I've been struggling for since far too long, and maybe now I should start narrowing down and looking at a single point and talk about that rather than wondering about the blank and canvas and the entire universe.

00:53
In that sense. So, here's an attempt at greasing the Gap in what I'm seeing and what I'm trying to achieve. And if I need to make sense of what I am seeing and what I'm experiencing. There is a particular experience which I want to share and also use this as a memory pack to revisit.

01:20
Maybe, say, 50 years down the line when I'll be 100, then that's difficult to imagine what I'll be doing when I'm 100. Would this be even relevant? Would this thought or memory of? Being immersed in something which is appears to be challenging right now, and I don't see a way forward.

01:44
So let me, uh, not get carried away with this fantasy of this memory, persisting. For such a long time. Uh, let me start instead with. Communicating or rather clarifying to myself? Where do I see myself today? What are the challenges I seem to be struggling with? Why am I?

02:10
Uh, feeling like I'm drowning? And not really enjoying myself in the position where I see myself. So some specifics, instead of rambling on. I realized that speaking in a specific phrases using stock phrases. Uh, using jargon. Is a necessity and not really an option. Uh, I'll give you a better example.

02:46
Um, specific to the interviews which I have faced and. What I did wrong. I realized now that instead of speaking in the professional language. I used a very lemon like tone, which. Did not probably Inspire the confidence or the trust, which I should have been looking at generating. I also should have.

03:21
Prepped better in terms of? Saying things which create the effect of. Being knowledgeable. About certain subjects. Uh, specifically. The questions were very predictable in terms of what would you do when faced with a problem? And if we go to a doctor? And you ask for the diagnosis? There are two ways which the doctor can handle.

03:56
The response one would be to just throw some language at the patient. And. Hope that the patient catches it. The other way would be. To use a balance or a tone down version of the diagnosis with. Certain terminology. Which indicates that the doctor knows more. And is giving you a simplified version of.

04:29
His or her view. Okay, uh, long-winded answer, but uh. Coming to the point of speaking, I should be more restrained, especially in the office when expressing negativity. Talking to the managers? They have. An exaggerated sense of their importance. Uh, I feel is culturally. It's, it's like a class. It's like the ruling class.

05:11
He tells the ruled class. What they need to be doing and how to do it? Rather than? Accepting everyone as a peer who are working together on a team. A language used is. Uh. Not so partisan, but the attitude of the manager is one of Monarchmanship. And it is more of using.

05:46
Over the other. To derive benefit. And to instruct. And to push. Get the work done out of or extract work from the workers. That may sound a bit harsh, but the language may be coached in. Vagness and in verbiage, which? Is not. Saying that, but implies that. I have been.

06:26
Foolish, I should say, I should admit, in not understanding. That it would eventually lead to a situation where my existence would be.

Session two

00:00
Continuing back from where I live. I don't know whether this is going to be a different recording. It looks like it. I don't think I can resume what I. Stopped for? That's an interesting finding. Is this format appealing to you? Yeah, it sure is. Don't sound like a written script, please.

00:23
Uh, I think you should. Learn to free yourself and speak from your belly and use your emotions to project what you actually want to say. So, what do you want to say why have a point to make here? Is there a lesson which I want to share? Is there a perspective which I'd like others to know about?

00:48
Uh, and why should that even care about what you have to say, well? About them caring. I really don't have much to add to that, but what I do have to say is? If you're stuck in traffic and? You're feeling all aggressive about it, and you make a small concession.

01:14
Let It Be a tiny one, and maybe that will Cascade. Maybe that will? Pass forward and? Things can gradually improve. Uh, bleed it not. Don't make it worse for others. Try and make it a tiny wee bit better for others and for yourself. That is the tiny idea for the day, and how do I?

01:45
How do I want to wrap this into a story or into a narrative into a thought piece? Is what I should be thinking about? Uh, I don't have a definite idea. Maybe I should experiment in using different formats using different structures and narratives. All this is all Theory and all fine, but eventually, how do you or what do you actually say, which makes a difference?

02:21
Is, is what you need to be working on, so that's the? I let me end this by saying that, yes, let me think more about it and try and be good and try and help others in being good as well. Thank you.