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Feeling empty, hollow, depressed this morning. Going to try to feel into it. Could be the abandonment depression. Wish me luck.

Alright, cried it out and feeling better. Energy flowing again. Also found some renewed willingness to engage more fully in the messiness of life. We'll see how that plays out. I won't make any decisions. I'll just keep processing and see what comes of it. I trust this feeling and what's arising from it. I'm not afraid of it. I welcome it.

So even the feeling of emptiness/deadness has clarity/willingness waiting on the other side. Interesting. I wonder if physical death will be the same?