day 16 - granola
May 17, 2022•285 words
Woke up around 3am with some anxious thoughts. Most likely the excess sugar in my system. Tried my best to sit with the fear until it dissolved, which it did eventually, but wasn't able to fall back asleep. Was dozing big time during morning meditation but tried my best to stay alert.
Made a big ass batch of granola after lunch. It came out overcrispy but it was fun making it using a giant bowl and pan. I hope the others like it. I'll do better next time. The oven here has no numbers so finding 350° may take some experimenting...
I hope this tiredness wears off. When I'm tired I end up reactively contributing to conversations I don't want to be part of. I want to do better, and for that I gotta get my diet and sleep down.
Before I go for that sleep, shout out to the cat that was in my lap a few minutes ago. Never have I met such a lovely cat - and there are two! I mean technically three but the third I think might be depressed, or maybe just old. I tried getting closer but he didn't seem into it so I just give him the occasional pet and leave him alone. He did brush up against my leg for the first time today actually, right in the middle of morning chants. Then he plopped down and started licking his bhole which had me spending the next couple minutes laughing silently while the others continued chanting in front of me.
It kills me, man. Everytime they wander in and start catting while we're trying to do our sacred buddha biz I just cannot keep it together...