Crawl Outta Love | Th 11/3

The morning has been alright so far. I only slept about 6 hours, but I've felt surprisingly awake and didn't have trouble leaving bed. Work has been good. I drove for our mob programming to do some tests and it wasn't nearly as scary as it seemed before. We also got a lot done and without any hiccups.

I sent the journal out to Rachel and Alex and have been talking to Alex about the situation. He thinks that I should lay down the law and not associate with Sammy similar to Adrian's advice. Talking over it made me realize both that I hate the idea of going back on a promise and really do like her. I guess I want to stay the sweetheart who likes and is liked by everyone, but that's just not possible.

There's so much going on right now:

• Work is kind of ramping up since we're nearly out of time for this project and my team members want to work until the end, even though it isn't a big deal how much we complete
• I also need to enroll in this health insurance, but it seems like I'll only get to speak to people about it after work
• Ben read the journal and responded in depth, but I can't stop to read it all even though I'm reacting to little bits I can see in the notification
• I may be going to volleyball tonight, but I may stay in to work out instead since the experience on Thursdays depends a lot on the crowd _____________ Work slowed down after I stopped actively working and I kind of missed being engaged. I kept reading through documents for insurance but couldn't pay much attention or keep from dozing off. I napped for a while after work too, which narrowed down my possibilities for the day.

I woke up at 6:30 pm and figured I'd eat dinner and figure the insurance out instead of going to volleyball. Jinn didn't message about it so I wasn't especially motivated to go. We've basically stopped talking and I'm fine with that, especially since new events are taking up my attention.

Eventually I got to call mom to ask about insurance specifics and enroll. Then Gigi wanted to hang out since a new Jeni's opened in town and was giving away free ice cream. Hanging out always sounds great especially with Gigi, but to talk about the fallout of the Sammy situation, especially over Jeni's, made too much sense. I associate Jeni's with heartache now given what I go through when I eat it, but it was comforting getting to experience it again at home. They even had stickers for almond brittle and brambleberry, which I want to share with Adrian.

Gigi and I had a nice talk about the situation. She thinks Sammy is the type of person to move on quickly, which is somewhat assuring. We also joked that these crushes seem to be getting shorter and shorter: 3 months, 3 weeks, and now 3 days. I'm not looking forward to the 3 hour crush though. Gigi touched in the idea of rave baes not staying attached afterwards ("what happens at Freaky stays at Freaky"), which I wish I could've kept in mind, but I guess both Sammy and I wanted to keep it going. Earlier today Gigi also commented that I get attached easily, which I agree described me well and I see as my inner good dog.

After finishing the ice cream we walked around the neighborhood, peeked into a bar that looked cool, and chatted about how much things have changed in the last year. Gigi talked about her upcoming and past birthdays, and her graduation party. During that time, she shared about a park near her place that she started walking to and we went to check it out since she wants to play games there for her birthday. It was fun exploring the park and chatting about the birthday celebrations we like and dislike, but somehow the topic changed to out health insurance and plans to get the flu shot and COVID booster.

This led us to try going to a pharmacy to see if we could get them right then. It was very fun and spontaneous, like getting ice cream and checking out the park, but we were both having a lot of fun and made me realize how much I miss hanging out like that. The employees at the front laughed at us when we asked about flu shots, but said to go to the pharmacy in the back anyways.

Despite our guess against it, there was actually a pharmacist there around 11 pm who got us processed despite us having to share pictures of our insurance cards. I got both the booster and flu shot, but Gigi wasn't sure about her insurance's odds of charging her after the fact, which is fair since the flu shot is $40, so she only got the booster. During our visit we also checked out the futuristic refrigerators with images and price tags on the doors like TV's, tape for volleyball, and the plants for sale. By the end of the night we both had a lot of fun, but I shared about how I'll be staying work proper soon and that things will be changing, which had me missing moments like this even more.

I also checked out finger taping videos for a while before calling it a night. I'm not even sure how necessary it is for me, but I suppose taping is mostly preventative, plus I'm sure it'll be fun to try the techniques.