Responsible Adult

I woke up early and couldn't fall back asleep, but it was nice "chilling in my head" until I had to get ready to leave for volleyball. I packed a lot in case we couldn't eat lunch in between playing from 10 - 3, which made me feel like I was traveling, and the drive wasn't bad at all. In fact, I put on my pump up playlist and was in a great mood by the time I arrived even though I was lost for a bit. The drill portion of the day was great. DJ walked Sherry and I through back row defense (home ...

I woke up around noon, ate, and asked Sara to play games. She and I got onto discord, played Borderlands 3 with pretty low level characters, and it was a lot of fun both hanging out with her and clicking on heads. After several hours she had to leave though, which made me sad to hear. I feel like a dog again. Also I guess we couldn't talk much in the moment, but if we get another chance to I may try making more conversation to light up my brain. Afterwards I was very bored. While trying to eng...

I woke up only to see the meeting I woke up for was cancelled. I tried to sleep for a bit, and then I was skipped over for stand-up. I didn't do any work until the meeting with Sam, which was a lecture like with Trevor. We talked about solid principles, which was weird to repeat but I guess I should keep looking into it. After that meeting I chilled and napped more, eventually woke up to log out at 5, and got ready to eat and leave around 6. I was very rushed at dinner, but packed my food to le...

I woke up for an all hands meeting, which I tried to sleep through. We had no other meetings so I just chilled for the whole day and ended up napping here and there. I did get to work with Trevor again and basically got another tutoring session on computer science (hexadecimal today) before we got to look at some stream examples. Afterwards I kept chilling though and ended up walking up around 6 to a ping from Gonzalo. I realized that he sent it around 5 and that he would see that I read it so ...

I woke up to a dream that I was at some football game in a big stadium and on the way with mom, but messaging dad on the way. I guess we went late and dad was concerned he misguided us, but mom was being difficult and way to realistic. Eventually I snapped at her telling her to stop complaining and roasting her for not using an ad blocker. The morning was routine, but Sam asked if I was in office without an explanation. He tried to talk with me later too so maybe it's something important. I m...

I woke up in time for an all hands meeting where Mila told everyone, among other things, that the Runtime Engineering team's attendance was 29%. I think everyone hates the return to office, but I didn't think the number would be so low even with the boost from this month. Mila also confirmed that 50% will also be acceptable, but added that we may start coming in on Mondays or Fridays to curb the desk crisis instead of finding somewhere to move. The rest of the day was a blur. I slipped into the...

I woke up at 9:30 without much sleep, but I figure it balances out with the heavy sleep the day before. I spent a while getting ready, but we pushed back the grocery run so it was fine. It was fun as always hanging out at Costco with Gigi and browsing, and we ate lunch together (Costco sushi is mid) instead of subjecting ourselves to the food court (although I did get a hot dog as a shopping snack). After eating and dropping the groceries off though, I called about the parking notice (thankful...

This is way overdue but I'm trying to pull myself together. Thank you for trying to keep up with my life. I may also publish the daily entries since I had to leave some things out (mostly work and volleyball details, some rambling). Hopefully it doesn't spam the emails of those who have mailing list reminders. After the dumpster fire that was the week before this, I spent time with friends and it was great. I hung out with Gigi and went to Costco, then went to North Park with some others, at...

Lately I've felt like a slave to my biology. I remember the feeling of Sara grabbing for my arm while walking around on the night of our date and I miss it. This week I realized that I want to be in a relationship too. Before I never cared much either way and just wanted to hang out with people, but I caught myself thinking it and it feels like an admission of defeat. As much as I hate to say it, the good chemicals highly motivate me to hold someone and be held and I want those chemicals. Duri...

Work has been whatever. Mostly forgettable punch-in days, but I'm still progressing on my projects and getting things done in the little productive time I get (since I daydream a lot). Sara confessed to me Monday after volleyball, I agreed to a date on Thursday, and we went out on Sunday. Even though rationally she's amazing, I have trouble seeing her as more than a friend. I remember being into her way back before the Jinn situation, and I honestly wish I could undo the "only see girls as frie...

I woke up late to do errands and eat until my date with Sara. I lost track of time and was a bit late, but she didn't mind. The restaurant was pretty inside and had trees in the center, so we sat next to one. It was great chatting with Sara, about my "rave warm up" theory, wanting to visit Japan, my love of Japanology, video games we're playing and grew up on, and a ton more. The whole time I was having fun, but I couldn't help but wonder if I should be feeling more "sparks". Recently I thought...

My workday was pretty productive. I felt like a donut not being able to demo much for Shabab with the automation utility, but I managed to get some more functionality by myself. I guess it's not so bad as long as I'm not using reactive Java. Along with that I even got myself to make a to-do list to the hour for the day and kept time with a pomodoro. Honestly it wasn't for long, since I eventually had my mind wander a lot, but I still got the big rock out of the way for the day. I also called ...

I'm trying to experiment with posting to the blog for a week's worth of condensed trends with some highlights instead of my daily play-by-play. I've heard some readers have had a harder time keeping up because of the longer entries, so I'll try to keep these free from things like specifics of work and volleyball or my ramblings. Please let me know what you think! I love to keep people in the loop, but maybe this strategy is too reductive. Also feel free to ask me questions about specifics. I'll ...

Yesterday was unfortunately a lost day. No errands done and I didn't even lift. I think I napped despite getting 8 hours of sleep and initially waking up very late, but I appreciated the recovery. The knees and shoulder feel fine now, which has me pumped. Today I didn't wake up early enough to pick up groceries (including those crew socks) or stuff to protect my ankles, but I still have time. The DIVA draft party was mostly chatting with Jason, Devin, and Sara. We had a good time talking ab...

I felt my body exhausted while trying to get up out of my chair during the day. Work was okay, but my team members have separately asked to have meetings about the automation utility, which puts some pressure on me to actually progress. Other than that I napped and was late for volleyball again. The DIVA open gym was okay, mostly sitting around since every team had 7 players and I kept getting asked to play middle. I hope that doesn't force me into playing the position during the season though....

I got up before my alarm, which was a surprise since I didn't sleep much. I think my body is down bad for sleep. I managed to make some progress on my project and meet with Joe to talk about a new story I have, which felt very productive. I feel like as work gets less novel I'll become less descriptive with it. Soon enough it'll only be going well or badly at the moment like when friends describe it. I went home without much of a hitch, tried to stay productive, but fell into the couch trap and...

It was so nice to work remotely, but I guess it wasn't meant to last. We got 2 new team members who don't seem like juniors (worked with things similar to Kafka and Kubernetes). I guess I'm happy to have more of the team's responsibilities split up at least. During a meeting to get to know them some of the team shared about how 3 day in-office mandate seems to be real and happening soon. They said there will be a sliding 12-week period where we need to be in office 60% of days, but they specif...

I had to choke out an excuse as to why I didn't progress much on the automation utility for stand-up, which was hard and embarrassing. Afterwards, despite my best intentions, I managed to get some solid naps in and eat well at least. It's not nearly as productive as I used to be but I'll take it. After work I drove through hell during rush hour to make it to the Costco near Albert to carpool with him and everyone else to Grapevine for open gym. The drive was fun and chatty, but we were surprise...

Woke up for stand-up and it seems like everyone was happy to hear that I made progress. Sam emailed me about a reminder he got that I didn't do the cyber security training, which I was sad to remember. During the day I managed to keep from napping, but I fell down a rabbit hole about money and my personal finances. Gigi recently shared about her changing mindset towards spending money, and that got me to realize that I'm in a great financial position and can probably afford to spend more despit...

Woke up for a stand-up that was pushed back but whatever. I'm tired, but I can only blame myself for ending late yesterday. I also trapped myself into responsibility by telling the team that I would schedule time with somebody to solve my ticket. In response Nicole asked to be invited to that meeting, so I actually have to schedule one. Thankfully just now she was okay with working together. She gave me the idea to use chat GPT to ask questions, which is very clever. I'm glad to have something ...

Woke up early and got to work on time, but my oatmeal leaked all over my clothes, lunch, and car. I was in a bad mood by then, but I was so tired and had to keep redoing a security training that took forever to load. It got so bad that I just went home during lunch. Gonzalo checked up on me afterwards, which was nice, but I napped here and there until the workday ended. I woke to around 6 PM when Andrew asked me if I wanted to play middle for volleyball tonight as a substitute for him. Le...

This entry was condensed since I wrote about it from memory days afterwards. It isn't being published until even later after. I tried to wake up early to lift, but slept in. I didn't even get to do much laundry before leaving for brunch. Gigi wanted to buy flowers and we learned that deliveries to the Whole Foods near her have been lacking, but also that they usually get flowers on Monday and Friday mornings. She also shared about how fresh and cheap the flowers are in NYC, which was interestin...

This entry was condensed since I wrote about it from memory days afterwards. It isn't being published until even later after. Woke up at noon to eat lunch with Gigi, Kimmy, Ben, and Melissa. Explored the Asian grocery near Jeng Chi again with them. After lunch we talked about EDC logistics and there's a lot to plan, but it's exciting. Tasha, the "come find me" girl, also messaged me and my brain stopped working, which was oddly nostalgic to feel again. Every notification was a rush. It'...

This entry was condensed since I wrote about it from memory days afterwards. It isn't being published until even later after. Daniela talked to the "come find me" girl and gave her my Instagram. She added me and I accepted but I don't know what to say. I was going to wait for her to say something, but I'm looking at the kandi and I think I should just talk. I guess at worst I just make a friend. The family was surprisingly not shocked at the hair color. Dinner was rough though. To call the fo...

This entry was condensed since I wrote about it from memory days afterwards. It isn't being published until even later after. I also woke up very warm, which may be because of the overkill blanket since it isn't that cold anymore, but I'm concerned I could also be getting sick since I'm not feeling the best after last night's headbanging. During the day I saw a YouTube video on Dostoevsky and I'm basically Myshkin. The definition of love as practical (over theoretical like loving people onl...

This entry was condensed since I wrote about it from memory days afterwards. It isn't being published until even later after. Woke up for stand-up and napped the morning away. Just hung out during the day. Eventually got myself to eat and left to buy fruit for pre-game. There were so many people since there were friends of friends (Rachel knows Peter, who brought Victoria and Milo). I saw Mitchell meet Daniela and at the end Peter Kim was talking up Samantha, which was especially strange. Our ...

I woke up after very little sleep to a stand-up meeting with only Joe. Just napped and hung out the whole day intending to be productive, but just napping and hanging out the whole day Still pondered the himbo realization and a video about the term separately defined friends as just people who support each other, which was a helpful definition. I picked up my LAN ticket from Brenda, which was a bit chaotic but exciting. The hotel we met at emphasized using photo enforcement for parking, whic...

This entry was condensed since I wrote about it from memory days afterwards. It isn't being published until even later after. Woke up and hung out before getting lunch with Adrian and Matthew. We left for In-n-Out to get coke for the test, but didn't have time to get all of them so called it off. Ate lunch before packing and leaving around 2 PM. Started raining right as I left. Uber ride was strange; nice driver, but a car spun out in the rain and would've hit us if we were a few seconds earli...

This entry was condensed since I wrote about it from memory days afterwards. It isn't being published until even later after. Woke up at 11, but fell back asleep and woke up again at 12. Hurried to get ready for lunch. We went to Umami Burger in the Grove. The restaurant was great, but Adrian spilled his drink and took heavy psychic damage from the experience. The Grove is very cute if pricey as a mall, and I enjoyed the vibe. We went back home to pick up Helen for ice cream and let Adrian cha...

This entry was condensed since I wrote about it from memory days afterwards. It isn't being published until even later after. Woke up at like 11 and missed church. Adrian left to pick up BBQ chicken since it was open for Christmas The chicken was amazing and we ate so much. Later we baked cookies with the last of the dough and our torn shapes resembled a map of the world, which was fun Adrian saw me play Left 4 Dead and I convinced him to play it. It was funny being in a call and messing aroun...