Hardly Working | Mo 11/14

I woke up with decent sleep only to realize I missed a development session with Gonzalo that I was supposed to sit in for. I just assumed I would have to log in at 9 AM. What a fool I was. Thankfully no one got on my case, but I think I need to look at my schedule before the week starts to set a different alarm for every day.

The polls for badminton came out and there are 6 times to play this week, so I have the calendar opened trying to figure my life out like a responsible adult. It's kind of nice knowing that I'm staying busy and having fun, but I wish I had more time.

I also put on the "why do I even like her" playlist and it doesn't hit very hard anymore, which I'll take as a good sign. I guess it'll just be awkward seeing Sammy in person, but I'm used to that kind of thing now. Last night Ben also talked about how I should be slower to form opinions about people since even a few viewpoints doesn't give the whole story. This makes sense, but I guess I got swept up when several people who I shared about the situation to all expressed that they saw red flags in how Sammy acted. Thinking about it now, maybe I could've stayed friendly with her, but I'd probably have to have talked with her about boundaries earlier since she and I both fell quickly.

I got kind of tired in the afternoon so I busted out the headphone case trick to dodge work for a quick nap, but I never set an alarm and didn't see any messages whenever I looked back at the computer, so I ended up napping for a few hours. Sam also replied to my request to leave the office early saying that I just need to put in 40 hour weeks, which echoed in my head as I realized how little I did today.

I continued to chill and contemplated going to badminton since the Irving gym they play at is only 20 minutes from me, but decided to stay at home and lift weights instead. I think this was the right call since that gym is apparently busy to the point where people don't get much play time, which gave me flashbacks to volleyball in the Summer.

My company swag bag also came in and I'm excited to use the branded mug to enjoy my complimentary hot chocolate out of, but I think I'll miss feeling the warmth of the paper cups and the bittersweet memories it brings as I try to focus at work. Speaking of bittersweet, Jinn also messaged me and kept the conversation going with some updates, which was surprising. It was nice feeling how I had no attachment to her anymore and could talk to her without any worries, but if anything I'm kind of distant now since I don't feel any pull to talk to or hang out with her.

Just like yesterday today was a lax night in, which I'm a bit disappointed in. I suppose I got some things done (finally scheduled the wellness screening) and can sleep at a reasonable time, which is a nice consolation prize if I can't hang out with people. I guess I'll be playing volleyball with Randy and his friends tomorrow though. I'll message him to confim that though since the weather has cooled down a lot the past few weeks. I guess the transition into fall was late and sudden, and it's suddently got me in sweats with my hood on like I'm the grey character in Among Us.