Zero Rizz 😔😔 | Sa 11/26

i slept very late and tried journaling in bed only to knock out
i mostly hung out and neglected my overdue chores
eventually eric asked to get dinner before nghtmre

• gigi was busy cleaning her place up so it was just me
• dinner was a nice chat abt nyc

eventually we came to gigis for pg

• i brought booze and a fruit platter that was left over from friendsgiving since gigi said she didnt eat much fruit/veg lately
• i got to meet another med friend matt and cammy's friend eric

it was nice drinking and chatting with the small group

• a piece of sweet fruit is a great chaser and helped me drink like 7 shots total
• the fruit cream rum was also solid even though i could taste the alcohol in it
• i didn't get much more than tipsy in the end, which was surprising
• the group was small, mostly gigi's friends
• kevin retired recently and ate a chicken sandwich with us, which was funny

eventually we ubered to the venue and had some fun waiting for everyone

• fun chat with eric about dartmouth and the tiny town its inside of
• it was oddly nostalgic and fun being sort of drunk
• our eric contemplated buying a $50 pashmina but decided against it

we came in during kompany's performance, which was hard and a lot of fun

• we got around front left, which wasn't a bad spot

the night progressed nicely

• the group stayed together and safe, passing around water bottles checking up on each other
• some moshing and wholesome shirtless headbanging were happening near us

Barely Alive was also a lot of fun

• some nostalgic tracks in the mix but still hard stuff
• i made some friends trying to help a few guys who were too gone by giving them water and chatting
• eventually i got separated from the group but had fun with strangers i met over the night

NGHTMRE eventually came on but we spend a few hrs there by then

• i could feel my knees and lumbar tired when using the restroom during the opening
• i was still enjoying myself around the strangers with the group within viewing distance

eventually i noticed a tall (maybe 6'1", looking good) girl getting progressively closer to me

• i wondered if she was interested in dancing, but never acted on it
  • i just kind of hoped she'd ask me or make a move and had fun by myself with that in the back of my mind
  • in transitions and low points we both kind of side eyed each other but i was still not sure if she wanted to do anything even though i was down to dance together
• eventually the set ended and she turned to say "it was nice dancing next to u"
  • my brain melted realizing she was likely also down to dance but i tried to still be friendly and eventually stumbled off to reconnect with the group

outside i told eric and matt about the situation as we waited for the uber and they told me i fumbled the bag

• we also returned to gigi's and they told her about it
• eric thought that the end would've been the moment to at least get a number or insta
• he also took the opportunity to tell me to start using insta
• as a testament to my frustation with myself i redownloaded it on the spot

this 6'1" girl is going to haunt my dreams

• she's also already entered the canon according to eric and gigi