Thursday, Aug 24, 2023: I hate packing

I really do hate packing. If I have the choice to, and I probably will never have the liberty to do this, I would just stuff everything I have into a bunch of bags and call that packing.

I have a hoarding problem. I grow sentimentally attached to everything. I probably do need a Marie Kondo in my life to ask me if each item brings me joy and to throw away everything that doesn't bring me true happiness. Well, I'm not that extreme. I have a hard time procuring the clothes in the first place, so I actually don't have a lot of clothes. At least, I don't think I have a lot of clothes. Most of my wardrobe consists of hoodies, black pants, and a bunch of free T-shirts that I get from whatever events I attend.

My hoarding problem is what makes packing hard. I have a limited amount of space that I can fill up and there are just way too many things that I want to bring. My dad told me that I couldn't bring all of the 9 hoodies that I wanted to bring. I was very unhappy. I love my outerwear but it just so happens to be that outerwear takes up a ton of space. I mean, when I went to my summer camps, I used a big luggage and that was enough for everything, including bedding. Now, I have to add a whole other luggage for all my jackets, hoodies, and winter clothes.

And on top on top of that, I have to bring cookware, cutlery, and other life stuff. I mean, the cookware takes up the most space. I'm not even bringing any decorations for my room because first I don't have much space and second I don't really have any decorations at home to begin with. I saw someone decorating their room with little paper cranes, and I think I'll do that because it looked really cute and also because it's free. There's really not much else outside of that. Some electronics. Some toiletries. There are a lot of things that I'm going to buy once I get there. (I hope Target has anticipated that a lot of freshman will want to buy things and have stocked up enough for all of us. Oh, I so desperately hope that this is the case, because I am not bringing toothpaste, shampoo, conditioner, body wash, hangers, cleaning supplies, laundry supplies, plastic bags of any kind, and I think that's about all.)

I even elected not to bring a bunch of clothes because I wanted to change up my style. Well, it was mostly pants that I didn't bring a lot of. I'm still horrendously attached to each one of my hoodies. Ugh, I want to change my style so much, but what's going to happen is that I'm going to end up feeling self-conscious and I'll just go back to the clothes that I always wear: a hoodie and black pants. Besides, it's hard to get new clothes that don't scream white woman. Maybe it's because I'm surrounded by white women here. Maybe I'll find some fashionista in Boston who will transform me into the cutie I want to be. An East Asian cutie patootie.

It didn't actually take that much time to pack. Maybe 3 or 4 hours? I still have a lot of stuff that I need to pack, but they're minor stuff. I've got the clothes in the luggage and my dad's packed the cookware stuff. I think everything else will be relatively minor.

I don't really know what else to say. My plane leaves at around midnight tomorrow night, and I'll probably write tomorrow's update on the plane. I'll have plenty of time to reflect about becoming a college student (ugh) and about my day in general. I don't plan on getting much sleep, and that'll be something to do to keep me entertained. So yeah, probably a much longer update tomorrow.

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