an impenetrable wall around me

shutting people out is what i'm best at
i wonder who in my life will accept that

if i cant see you, i cant feel you
but i mean no disrespect
believe that i still love you
through the ethereal disconnect

i tear down the walls
just to build them up stronger
i whisper to myself
i can't take this much longer

Nothing seems to help
medicate, try again
Getting diagnosed
seems to be the current trend

but even all these things,
time has told, I've withstood
like gene kranz said, "what do we have
on the spacecraft that's good?"

when all seems lost
i try to reclaim my power
usually that means
taking a hot shower