My Company

I have been listening to a lot of Nirvana recently because I find comfort in knowing Kurt Cobain felt something like I do. I actually can't really listen to anything that isn't full of anguish. I know he was disturbed by some of the same things too.

I am not convinced anyone alive would truly understand because I am so close to the edge.

I found myself in a trance staring over the edge of a five story railing at my office, like I couldn't peel myself away. I know where I would do it too, but I just can't make such a mess for everyone.

I feel like it will be worth it to go on, but that is just my intuition. I can't picture it at all. I can't picture happiness and love.