I saw the stars last night and realized the reality of my situation on earth so small in comparison to the universe. If we are all alone, what created us? I have really had such a surreal experience today and I can’t put my finger on it, but the radio sounds different, life feels different— grounded. Life is coming back again I am here to receive it ...

The stroke of my brush leaves my soul on this canvas The picture I paint so you can share my love and pain, a medium to set me free ...

There was a time I lived amongst angels, and I had my very own, our love was eternal, and such happiness I had never known, But now I find myself in the loneliest place, in the earthly solitude I drown ...

I always found it very difficult to strive for perfection in the eyes of god and to act in alignment with the Bible. Today, I realize that is because the Bible is the word and opinion of man and is full of contradictions; It cannot be matched perfectly because it doesn’t even match itself. I have relief believing I have nothing to strive for except for peace with my fellow human. ...

Many of these people I am surrounded by have the intellectual capacity for critical thinking and theory, but have a laziness that makes them inclined to squash any level of challenging thought. They seem to be like animals in the sense they cannot comprehend the idea of sacrificing short term pleasure in pursuit of a long term goal. Americans have become complacent and lazy in the sense that things that require sacrifice of pleasure are taboo. The “Why not just be happy where you are at?” ...

Upon my return, I am greeted by the familiar odors of the worldly city, I emerge from the station, and catch my first glimpse unburdened by that of my past which held me from it, in my heart, I feel confidence and relief, and suddenly the move is done I will just need to arrange my things. ...

The act is over The curtains have closed, and the actor has departed ...

It’s been a long while, we haven’t seen each other in years, I thought it was for the better, you’re why I lost that lover, and you almost took my life, but things have gotten harder, and I found myself alone, so I thought of coming to see you ...

She crawls in behind and throws her arms around me I roll over to kiss her and place my head on her chest a day is done and we are together time ceases to exist and the mind falls silent We endure everything together, nothing can knock us down quite the same, the troubles of life are outside of us There is a home for love to reside in, the family built from it, and the opportunity to experience it ...

Her mind and spirit radiate the strength of a blazing sun, they reside under her fine waves of night-colored hair, behind a face and smile so gentle and stunning it can melt one’s core, resting on a body perfectly elongated, I lost myself in the passion of her ...

Two stars illuminate the darkness, I hover between them, scorched by their fire, I can’t escape their pull They consume life around them, mine included, but their beauty is of the heavens ...

I see her and my chest flutters, it feels like I physically fall forward into love A flush of warmth overcomes me ...

Why is complacency a core western value? It seems taboo to most everyone around me to strive for more in life because what we have is good enough. At least in some eastern cultures, it is societally acceptable to want a better life (love, income, standing, outcomes, etc), but where I am, it appears to be unique and a source of contention. ...

The person I was then is dead Pain has forged a new one Time will say if the change is good, but life only goes in one direction ...

A few people call, but I just can’t take it The few I want aren’t going to make it ...

A break in the action here. If you read my posts, thank you. I am not all sadness. There is pleasure and blessing in each day too. ...

I never hurt anyone I’ve always tried to do right So many people like me But I am alone in a crowd I can’t believe life has turned out this way I never saw it coming Now I can’t see any light of a brighter day ...

I can’t believe you have done this to me I would have never hurt you this way I really thought you’d be different I’m left trying to pickup the pieces of my life ...

I was sure I was going to be married once, I had found the one forever Until she came out and gone ...

A just let me know that she needs our friendship to end indefinitely. The three closest friends I’ve ever had gone in the span of 18 months A devastating blow to an already fragile position Ever more evidence that life is painful and less reason to go on Where do I go from here, completely alone Even my parents can’t accept me This was the one relationship I was really holding on to. Perhaps that’s why it was bound to go this way. Do I drink? No I don’t want to ruin everything else I ...

I cannot force love I can command fitness, knowledge, and wealth But I cannot control what I desire most The power of love, which can provide a different plane of existence, is also the source of its beauty, and such power directly contradicts controllability It is inherently a mystery in the same way a god is ...

Career certainly should be a positive thing to embrace and lean on. Work is a requirement to provide our needs, the recipient of a great portion of our time, and has the potential to give us great satisfaction from learning, accomplishment, social interaction, and other things. Life is not empty just because vocation is the only thing someone may have. ...

Mother, please stop telling me I can’t suffer Telling me I can’t be sad There is too much in life that isn’t well I cannot thank your god for the things on my mind ...

I love her I wish she felt the same Maybe she does I believe she’s doing her best But this will not work for me It just hurts too much ...

The sun is rising I feel beauty and love again I want things to be different But I will survive ...

It is very interesting that so many things have the same bones. I see the spine of the chicken I cook, and it has a texture I imagine is strikingly similar to the human. What do I believe makes sense for creation? How did Herman the cat, the chicken, and myself all end up with similar bone structure and anatomical functions but so different in everything else? Where did this all come from in the beginning? ...

The beauty of life is coming back I have felt love again Though there isn’t much around anymore I am safer now ...

Gender is a social construct and people should live and be who their personalities are regardless of their physical sex. It isn’t uncommon to not fit the masculine-feminine boxes presented by society and it is without consequence to discard these ideas in the spirit of humanity and inclusivity. A present symptom of the conflict between gender (societally-defined) and physical sex is the occurrence of gender-reassignment surgeries. If gender is an artificial concept that doesn’t accurately ...

It is screaming at me Calling my name I can feel it in my chest I want to answer more than ever I have to stay It’s too soon to give up There is too much yet to come But I want to go ...

Mind is pain Nobody listens Because of a pretty house and plentiful things ...

Perhaps sex is something divine. It is the embodiment of love and life and has the potential for the greatest torture and anguish. What better symbol of god than the same thing that creates life being that which can completely destroy it. That may explain its extreme prevalence in the religious text of the Abrahamic religions. In the Old Testament/Tanakh, sex and fertility are often the main subject in all things related to humanity. Further, this could explain why many men seem to be inca...

Until this week, I thought I didn’t like people anymore and had no idea how to build a life that didn’t disgust me. I looked around at everyone and was like “They don’t have what I want. I can’t do life like that,” but I was simultaneously drawn to the pictures of Hemingway and Kurt Cobains’ lives a peaceful picture of leaving a positive impact before escaping the pain. Thankfully, I was able to realize depression was the cause of the discontentment with the pictures of peoples’ lives (becau...

I have been listening to a lot of Nirvana recently because I find comfort in knowing Kurt Cobain felt something like I do. I actually can't really listen to anything that isn't full of anguish. I know he was disturbed by some of the same things too. I am not convinced anyone alive would truly understand because I am so close to the edge. I found myself in a trance staring over the edge of a five story railing at my office, like I couldn't peel myself away. I know where I would do it too, but...

A year and a half ago, my best friend in the whole world disappeared from our lives without real explanation. She's alive, but unreachable. Shortly after, I dealt with my childhood sexual abuse for the first time and heard horrors of sexual violence from someone I loved. I would wonder if I should've shot myself that day back in 2020. I wanted to die, but I got through it then. Fast forward to three months ago, my next-in-line best friend of a decade lost his grip on reality while his famil...

I have lost my god my two best friends my girlfriend any hope of a life worth living The only comforting thing is the thought of death But I know I am not seeing clearly I am lost in the fog and darkness I can't believe there will be an end to this Even though I know I am wrong I am stuck here for now ...